Happy Day

FInally Bamp is over.
I had a good day today.
Had afternoon tea with Hiu Tung, Kim man, Sylvester and Horace.
Chit chat and chit chat and more chit chat.
Then walk around in carrefour and discuss about tmr's plan.
Woohoo.Picnic is making me happy.
I simply want some relaxation of my hectic schedule.

what a wonderful world

I never knew a camp can be so bad.I never knew tat some people are so horrible.I never knew some people are so not them,as what i have known so far.It's seems everything is at my fault.It seems my ability dropped so much after joining this cca. I am utterly disappointed,not jus with myself,but more towards someone.Mayb my thoughts are rather immaterial.It teaches u about trust,honesty and protection.you never know a person's true colour.Tat's life.人心颇测。

My temper is getting bad this few days.
I think my character is shaped a lot by it.
Many people have told me or rather warn me about it,
the fact is I did not listen.I chose to believe my heart.

But now my heart seems is telling me that I did the wrong thing.
I did not have the ability to do those things.
I am too incapapble, to the standard that people have to scream at me at what to do.
Well, it never happen in my entire life.
Now it happened.

Sometimes I really doubt at my choice,
the opportunity cost seems to be really high.
Maybe it's something to make you grow.
One cannot enjoy her life always,
she got to get over some obstructions for her grow.

Soon,it will be over.
I have to preserve through.
No point of fighting over unnessary things,
If people aren't noble, it doesn't mean you have to be like them.

Photos from chinatown trip with Bestie.

I am feeling sorry for many people.
Sorry bestie for not able to celebrate your birthday with you.
Happy 19th birthday!
Sorry for not able to send sister off for her Ireland attachment.
Sorry for screaming at mum due to my bad temper.
Sorry for letting people who pin hopes at me down.

Suddenly I miss the sub-com days so much.

看着旧照片
感动很多，
舍不得也很多，
每天没有他们的日子，
可能真的会很寂寞。

是时候学会坚强的时候，
是时候学会勇敢的时候，
就算自己再懦弱，
也要坚持下去，
不能让周围的失望，
更不能让自己失望，
最不能让梦想失望。

我知道好多时候，
我都想太多。
不知道是大脑太过复杂，
还是里面的程序出了问题。
其实，我要的真的很简单。
一个好梦就让我让我开心一整天。
希望我能做个好梦

Changes in life

Went to Haji Lane last sat with Yu Rong.
Haji lane changed a lot,really a lot.
Not terms of structure,but atmosphere.
Back to 2 or 3 years,when I went there the first time.
I totally fell in love with the place.
It's peaceful, artistic and full of surprises.
I still remember this independent music shop, called Straits Record,
where I spent almost my entire day.
It's no longer there, it moves to somewhere else.
Now there whole street is full of people,
people smoking sisha(I dunno how to spell it).

Everyone changed a lot after graudate.
Many become so busy, until no time to meet up.
I am considered to be one of the them.
The last time I met up with Yu Rong is like 1 month again.
Unlike that time, we used to spend days and days together.
Now,everything is different.

Bestie wrote something on her blog,
which make me feel very touched, yet guilty.
Maybe I simply focus too much on CCAs.
Yes..It's good to be committed.
But,I simply forgone my times with them.
With my lovely friends.
I should spend more times with them.
Friendships need to be nurished.
Fate brought people together, to know one another, to become friends
and to be there for one another.
If we don't treasure it,
it maybe taken away without your notice.

Museum visit is fun.
I will go to more musuems after exam.
I know it's a bit selfish,
but I cannot give up my entire life for one thing.
It will end eventually,
but life still has to go on.

I have a dream

I had a lot of dreams before.
Teacher, president, business woman, poet,singer and etc.
Today i suddenly realize I have a more realistic dream.
If I work hard, it's acheiveable.
I want to buy a house at age of 26.
And I want to be a developer by 40.
Though I have a lot of things on hand now,
i can never stop dreaming.
I want to continue to dream,
and make my dream come true one day.
*Not just in sleep.

Jogging

Just came back from a long jog.

Tired but contented.

I have not been running for so long for ages.

I think I completed aroun 4 Km, at least 3Km plus.

Acutally I ran for 500m, then I felt a bit tired and wanted to go home.

On the way home, then I saw Joel.

Amazingly,he had been jogging all the way from CCK to Bukit Batok.

So I decided not to go back and continue to jog with him.

We went jog around Bukit Batok Nature Park, then went to Bukit Timah,

and then to Hillview Avenue, from there I jogged back home.

In total, I think I have run for around 3-4Km.

And the amazing thing is that I didn't stop, I managed to jog that long at one go.

Haha..I think that's the longest I jog in the past 2 or 3 years.

I shall continue to train, so that can get rid of my excessive fats.

Plus, jogging helps me to destress.

It helps me to brighten up my day and straighten out my thinking.

I brought a small pot of cactus on Valentine's day.

Something like the one in the pic, but smaller.

Hope this cactus can keep me motivated.

Be strong like a cactus and have the resilence.

Exams are just round the corner.

Dunno what kind of grades will I get this sem.

Hopefully it's something of my expectation.(3.9,I really hope)

MA:AD,RFA:A, FIT:A, Tax:A, TDP:AD, UR:A, Bcom:B+

My goal may sounds a bit unrealistic,

but I really hope for that grades.

All the best for me and everyone.

Bamp is the worst camp I ever had.
Nothing is worse than this.
I had the worst planning experience in my life time.
Maybe it's a training.
Train myself to work with people that I can't work with.
****.
I don't scold bad words, but they just come out of my mouth.
I have problem with managing this kind of situation.
I cannot think properly as I used to.
I need help.Angel,help me if there is one.

Some random photos we took last week, after our FIT and Bcom presentation.
With our advisor in LT68E.

Evidence of murder.



Very extra Sylvester

K box price raised so much.

We wanted to go K box on Monday, then realize that it's so expensive.

There must be something wrong K Box's pricing decision.

Don't they know that the economy is bad.

Haiz..There is very little entertainment that we can have.


Monday is Lunar Jan 15th.

So we had Tang Yuan.

It's really funny to eat Tang Yuan outside someone's shop.

But anyway it's pretty fun coz those people that I am eating with.

Today's Sub-com interview is really tiring.
It reminds me of my interview.

It's hard to be a interviewee, it's even harder to be interviewer.

Finally I knew the reason why they laugh during my interview.

我真的该减肥了，才放在自己现在肥成这样。

如果要是睡醒就能瘦下了，拿就好了。

I know that not everyone is so understanding.
Not everyone know that you are busy with a lot of things;
Not everyone know that some of the things are your needs, not your wants;
It's ok.I don't need the world to understand.

This semester is ending soon.
How I wish it will not end so fast?
I will not be able to be in the same class with them again.
It sounds childish, espcially for me.
But the fact of not be able to see them make me sad, sometimes I even feel like crying.

Nobody is going to listen to my grumble;
Nobody is going to go crazy with me;
Nobody is going to sing with me;
And nobody is going to be there to support me,make me feel like someone.
I am back to nobody again.

I felt this way 2 years back, when I was about to graduate from HS.
And this feeling is back to me again and this time round is even stronger.
I don't know will be like next semester.
I really start to regret about my choice initially.
I cannot turn back the time,
All I can do is to face it with a smile and
not give up so easily.

Problems are everywhere.
I just wish this can be over as soon as possible.
现在的我真的太认真，
这个世界似乎需要的不是认真的人，
至少不是我这种人。

Happy Chinese new year!

I don't really like CNY in general,

but since this year it's a good year, CNY should good too.

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This year is rather a spendid year compared to the previous ones.

I just came back from society CNY gathering at Ziyi's house.

Though sometimes I really feel like giving up,

the feeling of being a society really pulled me through.

I like the feeling of being part of this big family.

Thank the planners for this gathering.

Thank Ziyi for the food.

Thank Jerel for the lecture.

Thank Ming Jun for the "Ang Pao".

So happy to meet up with bestie today.

Though sometimes we will quarrel ,

her chatter is really brighten up my days.

Gang reunion dinner on 31Dec,

Class CNY dinner on 3 Feb.

All this celebrations makes me love CNY more and more.

It's not about the food,it's about the people.

It's about the feeling of being together.

I have dreamt of him yesterday.

It seems like my life ceased in dreams.

Went to celebrate Siu Cing's birthday.
We had a simple dinner at Glass house.
Not many went, mainly last year's soc members.
She and Wilson are so sweet.
Haha.I am so good at predicating the future.
Maybe I should become a gypsy.

Sometimes I really envy last's soc member's unity.
It will be good if we can have the same outcome this year.
Hopefully.
Fish&Co made me so full,
and the excess cheese cake make me so sick.
Moral of the story, don't force yourself when you knew you really cannot.
Though it's a happy day,but I missed out 团圆饭。
团圆饭is equally important to me as everything else.

Yesterday's USP talk is really motivating.
At least it makes me think about my future and my strength.
How am I going to make myself become someone who is so good?
I don't know, but I knew that I will try.
Even if my ability is limited, I should set the right mood and attitude.
Sat is coming!Baking,gossiping and sharing.woohoo.xD

I dunno wat happen to me last year,
I made a lot of mistakes.
Mistakes after mistakes.
Smaller mistake which lead to bigger mistake.
Snowball effect.

It is really draining me out.
Mentally.
It transformeds me,
from someone who like to joke to someone serious;
from someone who are enthu about everything to someone who enthu about nothing;
from someone who is happy go lucky to someone who have lots to worry.
what is left,
it's only responsiblity,
not passion.
Perhaps,it's just doesnt suit me.
Initially I made the wrong decision.

It seems everyone is going to the states.
Today I met a girl who is going to NYU.
Jie Sheng went to Indiana University;
And a senior from my primary school is in Virgina University.
How I wish I can be there too.
I just need a change of place, a change of mood.
A new start of my life.

Happiness really don't last

I thought I was happy for the past few days.
My projects are almost done.
My friends are so nice and sweet.
My everything else is finally getting on the right track.

Finally I don't need worry too much for money,
Finally i don't need too much for results,
Finally I don't need to worry too much for my relationship with my mum.
But then it doesn't mean that I can stay happy forever.
There's always that something make me worried.

I think the amount of happiness in the world is fixed.
When you are happier, someone else is becoming more depressed.
So it's natural for your happiness to be taken away.
As usual, this year's chinese new year is not going to be a good one.
Mum is sickd again.

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It has been sometimes since the last time I brought 4D.
Each of us chipped in 20cents to buy 4D.
But then sadly it didn't come out.
The number that comes out is 1774.
It's ok coz this is our first class investment.
There's more to come.

The location of a school really affects its student.
Who ask our school to be located opposite IMH?
That's why we are always so crazy.
But then I am happy to be crazy.
Happy to be in this crazy gang.

Me and Bestie

Teo Ah Moo is not in coz she is the photographer.

If I have enough money,I will travel around the world!

Table topic tomorrow, good luck for me.

I know I have to preserve.
But then I don't know how long is this motivation going to last.
This common test is really disappointing.
First time getting straight Bs.
Bamp is another disappointing thing.
I am really worried about the turn out rate and of course the other important problem.

But this time round I cannot run.
Coz I think people have placed faith in me
And I got to be strong and break it through.

It's problematic.
More problems than I can expect.
Well,what's the point of continuing when I sacrifice so much,
and get back merely unhappiness.
Tough time do not last,but tough people do.

Well,I started watching Little Nyonya after many people have recommended it.

I was not happy with the ending.

Since this drama is there to paint a nicer picture of life,

to fulfill the wish of people wanting to have true love,

to show how can people fight their own destiny,

then it should have a better ending.

I was expecting something like this:

After Yue Niang told her grand daughter the whole story, then she walked out the house and saw this old charming man.

This old man will be Chen Xi.Chen Xi knew that Yue Niang is alive after libby told him.

They finally got to see each other after 40 or 50 years.

Then end the screen the two stare at each other,

just like how they look at each other at the railway.

Of course.It's not always up to your own wish.

I was quite disappointed.

I have no idea that people can be so irresponsible.

Then my thoughts start to shake again.

Those thoughts appeared once again.

I shall decide what to do after tomorrow.

But I think I already have a decision in mind.

This happiness is just too vogue.

I should not be so greedy, demanding for everything.

I should be chasing after something that is practical.

Looking back at 2008

Many people are commenting about their 2008,
so am I.
2008 is not a very spendid year for me.
Fire,Accident and my close encounter with murder case.
Of course,there are good things.
It's just that I emphasize too much on bad thing and simply ignored all the good onces.

1.Study
My study was considered improved compared to 2007.
I got my first book price and director's list.
My GPA is acceptable.I should be proud of my achievements.

2.Friends
My gang:I have been knowing them about 4 to 5 years.Despite that there is some unhappiness caused due to misunderstanding, we are still keeping in touch and care for one another.Thank Bestie for always be there for me,thank yu rong for becoming more understanding,thank Ai Ping for being so cheerful and thank Sue Ying for being so sue ying.

My Poly Friends(TA 29/23/28):All those gatherings, chalet, chit chats have made us become closer and closer. I really cherish the time to be with you guys. Whenever I know that I won't be same class with u all again, it saddens me.Thank you Hiu Tung,Xue Feng,Kim Man,Sylvester,Horace,Logen,Hong Yi,Juin Wen for the laughters and joy.Knowing u all is my fortune.

My other ACC friends(TA 24gangs):It's really wonderful to hang out with u guys.Hui Hui, Ivian,Joel,Ivan,Geraldine and etc.Through one way or another, I get to hang out with u all and get to u all more.I will not forget all the happy moments we had together.

My other friends:
Thank all the TDP friends for bring me joy,knowledge and confidence.The old TDP friends and those new TDP friends.
Thank Mrs Ng for guiding me and being such a nice tutor cum friend to me.
Thank Sister for treating me as a sister and sharing my woes with me.
Thank all the dancer friends and Justis for leading me into dance though I really cannot make it.
Thank whomever I have not mentioned in the list.I have pulled through 2008 because of you.

3.CCAs
I have become more active in CCA in 2008.From Subcom to Main com,it's a tiring yet wonderful experience.I have learnt and growed. Thank for whom ever that give me support along the way.
Then, NAQ.Thank the lecturers for giving me such an important role though I didn't work hard.
I learnt dance and guitar,though I gave up half way,it's a great experience.

4.Work
Work is quite smooth sailing this year though I run out of money quite often.Abi and her mum treat me really nice.I even got another highly paid tuition.Telemarketing is not just profitable, it also teach me a lot in property industry.Hope 2009 I can earn more money.

5.Love
Still as usual.I didn't fell for anyone nor anyone fall for me.Though I have some weird feelings along the way, not not big enough to cause a wave. Mr right is not yet found and I will continue finding in 2009.

6.Personal
My mood swings drastially this year.My control is not in the right place.

Anyway, I hope in 2009 the good things can be better.Bad things can be blow off with the wind.
And hope financial crisis can recover soon,better before my attachment.

It's 2009!

Now.It's 2009.
One day ago is still 2008.
I have not work out my new year resolution yet,
neither have I did a good summary of 2009.
Countdown at east coast with society people,
first time celebrating new year in this way.

Then headed to Rosanna's chalet.
I don't know what's wrong with my phone or rather starthub network.
I tried to call,but cannot call out.
I almost cried along the changi road.
Fortunately,there's a lot of kindsouls around.
I managed to borrowed phone 3 times from strangers.
May God or any other deity that is available bless you for the rest of the year.

During Rose's sister's party,I was like running around with Ivan's camera.
It's pretty cool to take photos with SLR camera.
I should have learnt more about photography last time when I was more active in TXY.
I went home coz of my terrible voice.
And there is another reason behind it.

I got this weird feeling.
In order to prevent it from getting weirder,
I tried to stop it.
Hopefully what I did is effective.

Actually I had a lot of things want to say out,
but it is hard to say out.
Especially to the intended persons,
Sometimes I just don't know how to bring those things up.
I really hope that I can find a chance to straighten out my thoughts.
At least be more assured about those things.
Hope I can get this chance soon.