Bored

Out of a sudden,everything lost its meaning to me.
Nothing interesting,
Nothing exciting.
Everything just look the same to me.
Superteen workshop is just another workshop.
Nothing good to talk about it.
While the only good thing is ,
the workshop make me realize that
i really don't know many ppl well...
Failure...
Haiz..........

Suddenly i realise something..
Why i am so unhappy throughout the days?
Coz i am too hard to be contented.
Ppl can be so happy over a new phone,
new boyfriend,
little improvement in term of results.
all those small small things,
can make them so happy.
Then how about me?
I am hardly pleased with anything.
When is the last time i laugh from heart?
I cannot remember...

What are my goals?
I seem so unsure about them.

SO what even if i know exactly what i want?
I am an uselss bum.
All my goals are too far to be materilisated..

Titleless agian.
Nothing to write.
All my brain cells dead after stucking with Huixun for 5 hours.
Well, doing Huixun alone is quite pathetic.
But more efficient.

No time to do home work again.
Haiz..
But i don't care.
No point of doing if my heart wasn't there.
I prefer doing at my own pace.
Not under anyone's dominance.
I know what i am doing,
and i am an healthy,
lively,
smart individual.
So,
i will never allow anyone to control my actions,
to interfere my thinking,
to manage my world.
To be continued....

A poem???

I am lost in the world of terror,
lost my way to the heaven.
Looking from outside,
i am still intact.
Bur deep inside,
i am nothing other than a frame.



I am trying to be poetic,
trying to sound like me.
One of my prematured product.......

Time flys really fast...
3 days ago, i was still a XinYing.
Now, i am a Laoying..
Too many things to say,
but dunno where to begin.
Yesterday night was special,crazy and fun.
One of the few significant events of TXY.
Love the perfomance of ManHua.
They will always give you make you go WOWOW.
Well, thanks for their perfomance, which make me almost forget what happened during the days.
Let's bygone be bygone.
I don't want to mention that again.
and nobody is interested to know neither.
Maybe the arrival of the new TXY is a good thing.
At least it makes us more united and bring us closer.

Happy valentine!!!

Today is white valentine..
ANother lonely valentine..
Poor me spend all my day doing non-sensencial stuffs..
While this is life..
My life...
IF u accidently browsing through my blog today,
then wish u happy valentine!
PS:I saw L1R5 of Hwa Chong, for science is 4, art is 5.
Same for RJC..
WHile ****
But i will go into Hwa Chong no matter what..haha

Although i planned to study during holidays,
i still play as much as usual.
Yesterday spend all my precious time in SPH again.
They are sharing the PORKS.
While that's another new term i just learnt yesterday.
They are dividing the new TXY into groups.

Then went home together with the cute guy,Jeremy.
HE is so comical,but adorable too.
And his cake is so tasty.(But i have only taste it once)
Nevertheless,must mentioned about other drawING people.
Shi Lei, Pei Xuan, Jia Hao.etc...
If anyone publish a comic on them,
it's definitely a unique one.
Coz everyone of them are so unique.

Yesterday i discovered another thing about me.
I really have some problem with talking to people.
In the past, about one years ago.
The first year in TXY,
I am so enthusiatic about everything.
Now all my enthusiatism are gone.
I am no longer the old me.
I changed again.
Talking to people becomes a burden rather then pleasure.

Hopefully next week i can recover,
regain all my enthusiatism.

another crappy posts

Recently really too busy to update.
But today i have a lot things to say..
Firstly, career day.
Everyone looks so amazing..
Except for those who wears nothing,but uniform.
A few ppl i want to comment at.
My dearest mummy---Edwina,
she looks so sweet and unlike her.
However, she is still as violent as before.

Our head prefect, Gavin
He is Gorgerous.
He looks so unlike the unusual him,
almost make me fall in love with him.haha..

Then rest all not bad,except me...
Anyway it's over...
No point of continue talking about it.

Recenly i am really into news and politics.
Very unlike me.
I somehow become obsess with Thaksin's news.
Even though it's none of my problem.
I believe he will survive through the crisis
no matter what happened along the way.
He is meant to be the leader of Thailand.
His financial background,
His ability,
And his popularity,
all make him a perfect leader for Thailand.

Another news attacted me is abour Li Jia Chen.
His wealth ranked no 10 in the list.
His total assets worth about 304 billion us$.
The winner is still Bill Gate.
I wondered how they can earn so much money,
While other ppls like me still stuck with poverty.
Haiz...Poor thing.
Bless me,
I will beat them one day....
Muahahahaha....

Just another if mine.
No surprise,
Nothing happened.
SUddenly i realise most of my dreams will never come true.
I just don't have the luck,
the talents,
the chance,
as well as the look.

Whom to blame?
None, but myself.

Well, i really expected my wishes can come true.
Let me try to taste of happiness for a while,
I won't be greedy to ask for more,
I promise.

Wish is just wish
and
if wishes can come true,
why there are so many unhappy people in the world?

Haiz...
Childish thoughts come to my mind again.

Bless me...

如果能忘记，
谁会想记得？
如果时间能倒退，
过去还有什么意义？
如果到未来就能找到幸福，
为什么我还看不到？

Happy birthday to all my friends..

Hey, happy birthday!
If u r born somewhere around march, then wish u happy birthday!
I can't think of any nice thing to say due to the lacking of intelligence.
I didn't think my clip is that touching,
while thanks shell chi for being so appeciatative.
Maybe i really have the talents of becoming a director..
What if i am the director of broken back mountain?

er...



It may turn out to be a tragedy for the media..
I changed my templates.
While it reminds me of something,
no..
Many things..
Many people..
Many joyful moments,
Many sad times,
and many more..


Actually,
It is always there.
Somewhere in my mind.
It's juz up to me whether to think about it or not.
Haiz..

..

Just another day of mine.
Morning i have spent about one hour practising my oral.
well, i just realize how pathetic my English is.
Hopefully i won't fail my English.

Then i spent about 5 hours at SPH, discussing about YingXin Gathering stuffs.
i didn't know that we can be so creative and ideas flooded our mind.
The game we planned is so unique and surprising,
i think most of the people will go crazy with the game
COZ IT"S SO FUN!!!!haha...

This post is one of the few post i wrote under normal circumstances,
Today i did not flood myself with all sorts of emotions.
That's why i am able to write my post in a positive tone.
OH!Shit!I somehow get possessed by the spirit of SS Teacher...
But never mind, i love SS.
ALthough it's boring,
it makes me feel like sleeping.
i never score well for the subject,
i still like it.

Weird, right?
I am just an eccentric person.

My bloody days........

My days getting worse and worse.
I am totally out of control.
Everyday of mine sucks to a great extent.
While i haven' think of any world to describe.
I am getting more and more pessimistic.
I try to convince myself think positively and i failed.
Nothing can cheer me up.
while there wasn't anything or anyone can make me happy.
Maybe i am just too demanding.
How can i ppl like me be so demanding?
I don't have the right to be demanding.
I am nothing, but trash.
I know that very well.

I always claim myself to be the prodigy,
But i know i wasn't.
I am just a rascal without any quality.
What are my qualities?
Excess fats on me.
The grassy hair.
The ugly face.
The pores bigger than asshole.
The stupid and detestable character.
What else?
Still got many many more.

I know myself well,
I don't wish to live in dream.
In the past,
i like to run away from reality.
I even have inrealistic wishes,
such as becoming
a beauty queen,
a model,
married a rich husband.
Now i am older.
Dream is dream.
U can't always live in dream.
No matter what u still have to wake up one day.

我要的幸福呢？

幸福，到底什么是幸福呢？
不曾拥有的人永远也不会知道。

Finally Chinese new YEar is over.
I hate festival and chinese new year is the most detestable one.
There are many reasons behind it.
I dunn't think i am going to say out one by one.
Actually i have too many things to say,but because of that i dunno where to start.
Should i talk about life?
It doesn't help even if i can write out a book on life.
It won't make my situation any better.
Valentine day is coming.
The lonely soul----
ME
Will still spend it alone
But it's alright.
I used to it already.
Now i even started wondering the meaning of true friends.
How many friends i really have?



I doubt nobody can give me the correct answer.
Just now drop by my friend's blog,
I saw this very meaningful sentence
Only those stupid and selfish ppl will happy forever.
It's true.
I will never be happy
and happiness will never be with me.

Another titleless post.
I dunno what to name my post.
Coz i just lack of the ability of coming up with nice nice phrases or sentences.

I am wondering if i really can reach my goal.
Maybe it's just another dream of me.

caught in the middle

I was not sure is it the right thing to do,
but i am still doing..
Things always gone beyond my control,
while i feel totally helpless...
What should i do?
I often ask myself this question.
I still can't find the answer.

Last friday,
Maybe it's this friday.
I was at Bishan.
Suppose to be shopping and browsing around.
I don't want to mention the name of the characters of this narrative,
it won't benefit any one.
But little things happened
which change cause my mood swing uncontrollably
Maybe i am really an autie,
going to have monopause soon.
I was caught in the middle
Not knowing what to do
Not knowing what should i do.
Maybe i can still act as retarded.
Then my heart won't hurt much.

Don't worry!
I am not feeling sad.
Nor Depressed.
WHile it makes me realize how strong am i.
I am strong enough to accept any thing

Should i describe the story more clearly?
i think no need.
Since i know the whole story,
and
i am the only one reading my blog,
i don't have to explain to anyone.
If u know,
Then u will know.
If u don't know,
Then u don't have to know.

好多时候，很多事情等到失去了才知道心痛，例如。。我想说，说了也没，什么用，只会让大家都不好受。
其实，我难过，却说不出口。我甚至连表示难过的机会也没有，因为我太贱。明明难过，却还要继续听下去，还要装出很感兴趣的样子。知道了又会怎样，我还是无法改变。
可是， 好多时候，往往以为很想得到的，得到了却没什么了不起。那天，收到他的sms,我才发现心里的感觉早已随着时间消失。不知道自己为什么那么傻，在一件事情上拖拖拉拉了5年。这一点也不像我，但是我又是怎样的呢？
也许爱情该到的时候，它自然就会降临。
但是还要多久才能等到这一天呢？

school days

i have been wondering what can i say about school days...
Pardon me for using the word sucks...
It's the only word comes to my mind..
I may be exaggerated, but it's so real...
So many things happened after holiday..
I just can't accept it..
In facts, many things had happened before holiday started, i am just too stupid to understand..
So what if i know..What can i do?Can i change the consequences?i can't..
By the way i don't think that will affect me anyway.
After going through so many challenages, i have grow stronger..Mentally and physically..
It won't affect me anyway..my only aim is to success, to get what i want..
Nothing could be too real than that...
WIsh me all the best

contradictions

i thought i don't care, but actually i really mind...
I couldn't elborate too much on the problem, coz i am not sure of my feelings...
if i know, i also dunno what 2 do...
my decision can't change anything, it will only make the situation worser..