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Monday, November 23, 2009, 7:27 AM
New perspective
When you change an angle, you will see things differently.Of course,I am still the two sided me.
Sometimes sunny bright, sometimes stormy grey.
It does not stop me from seeing things in a new perspective.
N0 reason for making yourself unhappy.
Work is pretty ok now.
I started to get better with collegues.
Had lunch with my boss on friday.
He drove us to parkway parade.
haha..Free ride and free lunch.
Then the other interns bought donuts for us.
haha..It's free again.
Then my very funny Indian coll gave me some snacks coz I laughed at him.
haha..So I have free stuff for the entire day..
Dance lesson is fun.
More salsa dance this week.
Hopefully I can continue my passion in it.
And my fire does not die off so soon.
I want to go shopping.
I am becoming a shopholic.
Someone,please go shopping with me.
haha..
I am indulging myself in the world of drama.
Real life is full of imperfections.
Drama is the only things to satisfy your wishes.
So why break up your dreams as long as you are happy with it?
I am still dreaming of myself walking on 5th Ave,
Times Squares, Wall streets and Upper East side.
I may be giving it a miss now,
but it does not mean that I am giving it forever.
I will get it, just a matter of time.
Christmas is coming.
Santa,please give me better presents this year.
Sunday, November 08, 2009, 8:15 PM
Today I didn't go to work.
Decided to give myself a break.
Seriously I feel very drain due to work.
Watching Korean Drama at home.
Indulge myself in fantasy.
I am very drama kind of person.
My imagination tend to go wild sometimes.
Maybe I will be good a story write if I continue to write.
But the problem is that I stopped writing for so long.
Now I don't know where to start.
One day holiday is not really enough.
Hope that my attachment will end soon.
Saturday, November 07, 2009, 9:24 PM
I was sicked from Friday until today.Dunno will I be ok tomorrow.
I think sickness is making my mind going to be sicked.
Again, I start to wonder about my position in life.
Yesterday when i was browsing through facebook,
I realized that one of my friend actually got in Uni of Penn.
Wow.Besides wowing, I don't know wat to say.
My life long dream that people can achieve like so easily.
The questions come again.
What do I really want?
What can I really do?
Salsa lesson later on.
At least it is something that I can look forward to each week.
Nowadays I really lose interest in almost everything.
What is wrong with me?
Christmas is coming in 1 month plus times.
Hopefully this year I will have a wonderful christmas.
My dream kind of christmas.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009, 4:54 AM
Had my first salsa lesson on sunday.It is full of fun.
At least I can relax myself during the one hour.
And Salsa made me feel like a lady.haha.
One moment, I thought that I can fully enjoy my life,my youth.
The next moment, reality hits me.
I still have to struggle so much.
There is not a single day that I can stop worrying about such problems.
When is that day coming?
Tomorrow is a better day.
I will still face it with a smile no matter how hard it's going to be.
Saturday, October 31, 2009, 10:24 PM
I made a plan tat is totally impulsive and selfish.One can only live for once.
So don't make yourself regret.
No matter what,i am going to do it next year.
I want to enjoy life.
Not merely live a life.
A very good 21st present for myself.
Hopefully everything will go well as planned..
2:20 AM
I am at a lost.My SAT results is really bad,
something that cannot get me to anywhere of my wish.
I don't know should I go for retest.
If I do, I may still get the same result due to lack of time to study.
If I don't, I may not get into any uni with this kind of results.
Of course, I can try my luck to apply for collges with my poor SAT result.
The chance of me get accepted is low,
which means I have to waste about 1K.
But going to college is my lifetime dream since I was 9.
If I don't try,I may regret in the later part of my life.
Even if I can go to the states for further study,
it may not be more value added for me.
Perhaps I will lose more important things,
like friends, friends and friends.
Someone said that don't let your ambition stop you from enjoying life.
I think I am someone who missed out too much for the sake of pursuiting my ambition.
I am totally at a lost.
Maybe I am at the bottle neck of my life.
Nevertheless, I hate to be ordinary.
But back to reality, one cannot be extraordinary all the times.
Even someone extraordinary have to live a normal civilisian life.
It's time to do some soul searching.
Let me find myself.
Thursday, October 29, 2009, 8:28 AM
Disappointed
I am so disappointed about myself.My SAT score is terribly low.
Miracles do not happen by chance.
Fate does not change as you wished.
Monday, October 26, 2009, 5:21 AM
Bad day
Today I had a bad day.Morning I was utterly sleep.
Then it's lunch time.
Thought I will feel better after lunch.
Who knows that lunch is making me feeling worse?
I vomitted out my entire lunch.
Maybe I am ill treating my stomach too much,
now it starts to become rebellious and turn against me.
Most probably have to see a doctor tomorrow if I am still not feeling well.