Happy new year!

For the past two years, i have been celebrating Christmas with fellow txys.
This year i was alone.
They are still celebrating,
but not me.
I am the one who choose to run away from that circle.
No point regreting over it.
Year 2007 is a sucky year for me.
I screwed up many things.
No.I don't even have a thing in the first place.
I don't have much hope on year 2008,
coz if i am not going to change,
nothing is going to work.
Here are some of my new year wishes.
1.Change my attitude.Less arrogant and more optimistic.
2.Be more determined.Don't dwell over the past too much.
3.Learn a new skill.Eg.Swimming.
4.Study harder.GPA of at least 3.8.
5.Cheer up and have a more positive attitude in life.
6.Improvements in all the other aspects.
I have been turning my bio clock upside down for the past few days.
so it's today.
Happy new year.
Going to night safari in few hours to celebrate new year.

Stressed

I am so freaking stressed.
That's why i am still awake at this time.
Maybe someone can use a stick to knock me down,
or use some form of injection to put me to sleep
Staring in front of my lappy
not knowing what to do.
The only thing in my mind is stress.
IVP is coming.
I know i won't help NP much,
but in losing the competition only.
My results,
suck like hell.
Not to mention getting into my dreamy NUS.
I am just a talent-less failure.
Until know,
i still don't where are my strength and what are my dreams.
I am just a aimless wonderer.
Why can't i find my passion?
I know i am being negetive again.
While i hate it and it really drag me down.
But i just can't get rid of it.
If you are my friend,just ignore me.
I am going to lock myself in the room for days
and don't try to reach me until i release myself.
Bloody hell.
This fucking loser year is going to be over soon.
Will i be luckier next year?

A lof of things to say.
When one is free, one tend to think of a lot things.
Your past,your present and your future.
I am too proud of myself.
No.I have been too proud of myself.
That's why i never really sit down and reflect myself.
Too many things i have forgone.
My Judo,
My TXY,
My writing,
and my dream.