A mixture of feelings

Came Back from BA society MC interview.

I think I screwed up that interview.

When a question is being asked, I am too nervous until i forget about what i am going to say.

Yes.I have come out with nonsensical answers again.

I am a bit disappointed coz i think the chance for me to get in is rather low.

There are too many candidates available.

Why should they choose someone who speak in a funny manner everytime she is being interviewd?

I really hope to be able to work with those people,to do things that i like.

The kind of feeling that i will never get from else where.

Even if i don't get, i will not be sad. There is something else that I can do.

The big plan.



Today i spent the whole afternoon complaining and gossiping.

The feeling of pouring out everything from your heart is good.

Especially when you found yourself acutally have so many good companions around.

I am back to me again.

It only shows one thing.

One have to be true to herself;

one have to be true to the others;

You will be loved only if you reveal your true self.

Holiday is over.
Many things happened.
No comment about it.
I just found one thing,that is i am getting more and more emotional recently.
While, it maybe a good thing,it's much better than being hypercite and callous all the time.
The world may be cruel,
but thank God there is still friends around to support you.
One true friend worth much more than tons of hi bye friends.
I will not forget what you have said when i am feeling low.
The class is tearing apart.
Mainly due to someone.
Seriously i really can't stand to have this type of person in my class.
It's a good chance to practice your tolerance level.
I am becoming increasing alcoholic.I finally understand why people need to drink desperately.
Nothing bad about it.Drinking alcohol can really make you forget things temporily.

I think i often wonder too much,that's why i always put myself in emotional trouble.
Last week after NYAA's meeting, I suddenly miss Judo so much.
It's really something that i enjoy doing, something that i am passionate about.
And with that someone special.
The feeling have been lost for long.
I want to join BA society,not because of any political factors,but simply I want to have that feeling back.
On the day of FOC, i really feel like the secondary school Judo days.
Moreover,the feeling is back.
All the best and smile.