Rainy days

It's raining again.
Raining days often make people depressed.
Out of a sudden,
I was suddenly reminded that my 21st birthday is coming up in 3 months times.
Then I started to imagine how will I celebrate my birthday.
Will I be happy?
Will I feel lonely?
Will I?
So many question marks in my head.

After graduation, friends start to lose contact.
From friends to Acquaintance, maybe even strangers.
People just come and go.
Perhaps this is life.
You cannot change it,
then you have to get used to it.

Wrong decision

Made a wrong decision.
Now I am suffering from this painful mistake.
I will let it go if I cannot hold on to it anymore.
Hopefully tmr is a better day.

If I can get drunk one day.

I just realized that I am always too timid.
Too timid to do anything.
If I can get drunk one day,
I will definitely speak out all my secrets
and all the hidden message that I want to convey.
It doesn't feel good to keep those things inside for long.

唯一

就算听到唯一，我也没有感觉了。

脾气差的我。

我脾气好差，一点点小事就生气。
好讨厌脾气差的自己，这样下去迟早没朋友。
可是我有控制不住，总不能向不爽也不说吧。

There's unlimited wants.
However, the resouce is scarce.
You will be happier if you don't asked too much.
Another reminder to myself.

F my life

Fuck you!
Sorry I cannot help but being vulgar.
Can you fucking stop talking about money?
Is that all we can talk about?

Why not let me go and become prostitute?
You can get all you want!
I can return u all the debts owing!
No money, no money, forever no money.
How much money do you want?
Fuck.

I seriously hate this home now.
I have no father, no mother.
Fuck my life!

I am a loser.
没亲情，没爱情，好像只剩下友情。

Don't take things for granted

Things are more precious when they are lost.
Most of us just take things for granted.
Family,friends or even the air that we breath.
We never know how important they are until they are gone.
That's human nature.

Sometimes when i gaze at the sky,
sometimes when i stare into space,
sometimes when i flip through my past,
I only realized one thing,
how many good ppl and opportunities i have missed out in my life.

I think i am getting old,tat's why i behave like an elderly,keep on talking about the past.But i am just sentimental.It's a bad habit hard to be changed.

Btw i think today I have just screwed up the test.Gone case.
如果时间能够倒转。

累了。

活的好累，不知道还有没有继续努力的力气。
每一天都好像是生命的最后一天。
好累，好寂寞，为什么在地图上找不到幸福？在厉害演戏，还是骗不了自己。
我可以放弃吗？

Finally

It's like finally that we have booked our tickets for holiday.
The thoughts about going for a holiday together has been emerging since year 1 or 2.
China, Maldive,Korea, Bangkok,Tioman and eventually Phuket.




I am sorry if I have caused some unhappiness.
All I want is for us to go for a holiday together and leave some beautiful memories behind.
I am still positive about going to Thailand though it may be a bit chaotic at the moment.
But I believe that things are going turn out to be fine,
we will have fun over there, is it?
God will bless us and protect us.

Received offer for NTU biz.
Really happy about it since it is the course I wanted.
But I began to worry about the finance part.
How to finance my school fees and living expenses in uni?
Kind of difficult.



A bit pissed off yesterday about some people.
Understood that you are concerned about us,
but please don't be a wet blanket and think that the whole world evovles around you.
Moral of the story,
my character is just too strong.
I cannot click with some people unless for socilizing purpose.






Sometimes I am really happy to have this bunch of friends,
for them to be so accommodating and tolerate my nonsense.
Though sometimes they bully me, they laugh at me, they quarrel with me,
but it adds flavours to life, is it?
Perhaps things will change after graduation.
But in my mind, nothing will change.
I am being sentimental again.

Anyway bless me for upcoming tuesday!
Hopefully I can make it through.

Feel like going to watch mayday's concert.
Anyone interested in going?
Implusive decision again.
I just like make decisions without plan,
let my soul just wonder around freely,
but it seems there are too much restrictions in life.
I am still lost in my world.

最近很爱的一首歌：没那么容易。
可能很多事情都没那么容易吧，容易得到的人就不懂得珍惜。
可能现在的我，没有办法为自己而活，因为有太多负担，没办法做一个完完全全的自己。不过，还是要抱着希望，坚持梦想。总会有那么一天奇迹会出现的。
If you give up hopes,then hope will give u on you too.