Being Thankful!

Today is not really a good day.
Seriously.
Then it comes to BA carnival games.
No comment on the games.
Everyone knows how good and bad it is.
But i am so glad that someone said some encouraging words to me when I was feeling down.
Those words really motivates me.
Politics are unavoidable.
The most important thing is be happy.
Yes.I should stop escaping.
Don't let the others affect your determination.
Really have to thank that person for the encouragement.
Help me convey the message if you know that person.
Exams are coming!Have to start study soon.
The importance of a director's list becomes so significant.
I want to go for the California trip.
God Bless me(Provided I can find a God in the first place).
Chances are low low low low.

Everyone is a piece of puzzle.
The world need different pieces of puzzle to form a wonderful picture.

Wrong.

Wrong Feeling;
Wrong Institution;
Nothing is right.
Why must I have so many senses?

Happy Birthday To me!

Yesterday is my 19th birthday.
I had my biggest surprise ever.
On the friday night, Joe Han called and tell me that he had to pass to me something.
I didn't suspect anything coz I am drunk.
Until I reached downstairs, here comes the surprises.
So many water bags attacked me at the same time.
I am totally shocked.
But it's really a great experience.
I am very thankful to all of you to come so far and give me this birthday surprise.

Thank u to:
my classmates for the "19" muffins that have prepared.
Joe Han for the white lies and listening to me;
Ming Jun for the first to attack me with water bag;
Jonathan for trying smashing my face with the cake;
Rebacca for the consistent laughters;
Aishah and Tricia for hiding the candle stand so deep inside the cake.

Also To all those who messaged me;
Ah Man, who first msg me at 0000;
James,Feng jie, Sylvester,Jasmine, Shu Wen, Ivian, Jun Wen, Pei Jiao,Guan Yuan.
And some of the surprisng ones:
Sian Ying, my long lost best friend;
Jie Sheng, who calle me twice before my birthday;
Darwis, who is so busy with his love affairs and Uni admission;
Hui Mei, busy with her media corp attachment;
Even Justis had sent me a littile message(Thank u Feng Jie)

I am really glad to know you all;
Thank u once again!
I don't urge for anything more.
No point wishing for things that are not going to happen.

Depression

Depression.

...

I didn't talk much today.
I am not really in the mood to talk.
Sorry if i have screwed up your day.

I am a mentally unstable,
that's why I have drastic mood swing.
Don't you think so?

I hate reciprocals.
I hate returning of favour.
I hate return on investment.
Life is not about exchange.

Last year this time I have no worries for things;
Now i have plenty of them.
When is the last time that i thought to be best friend called me?
New is always better than old,right?
I have been in TXY for 3 years plus.
Now who remembers me?
I had been a shadow friend for someone for times.
Now not even shadow friends.

I think too much and I periodically commit this fallancy again and again.
Maybe the concussion should cause a heavier blow,
so that i won't be thinking that much.
1 more day to go.I don't look forward to anything.
Nothing surprises, nothing matters.
Life is just a process of dying.

I tried,
I tried,
and i tried.

I failed,
I failed,
and i failed.

Until now I am still in between of trying and failing.
When can i try without a subsequent event of failing.
2 more days.Life is not always perfect.Happiness is all i am craving for.

这首歌很适合形容我的心情。
在凌晨
在凌晨两点十分慌张想，你吸着无法入眠的空气。如果是梦镜也许是幻影，我想沉醉在这里。
常常会发现，你在我的身旁听我当兵的故事很有趣。清晰的感觉永远不会变，而你不在这里陪我。我忘不了你给我最当初的礼物，忘不了你给我最当初的礼物，答应我陪我去寻找我的梦想，到头来我不是你选择的人，也许你是对的。
Almost every word of this song is telling my story.It has been almost a year to that day.
I know i won't be able to let the memories fade off so easily.
It's drawing nearer.I don't carve for surprises.I just hate disappointment.