力量

我不知道自己有多大的毅力，
我不知道自己能不能坚持下去，
可是我知道自己不能放弃。
力量，给我力量吧。
让我能坚持下去，
让我离成功再近一步吧。

Amazing grace

I guess my brain is structured a bit differently from the others.
Especially people around my age.
Sometimes unrealistic ideas just come out of nowhere
or it is because I has been taught in a different way,
a way that expose you to truth of life.

I watched the movie Amazing Grace at 3 am in the morning.
Movie is a great source of learning.
It tells the story of a compassionate young man,William Wilberforce,
fighing for the abolishment of Slavery for his entire life.
The final bill is passed not long after his death.

It made me start to think once again,
what is the meaning of life when you are all your world?
We should live not just for our selves,but to make a difference in others.
The issue of poverty is always bothering me.
Maybe I should and had to do something.

But sadly,I am not Wilberforce,
I don't have a William Pitt to be with me.
And I can't act freely when I am struggling with poverty problems myself.
However, it doesn't mean that I can't do anything.
Tough time do not last,but tough people do.

One great quote from the movie:
Remember that smell,
Remember Madagascar,
Remember that God makes man equal.

Refuse to be ordinary

No point of looking back at yesterday and regret about not doing certain things.What you should do is take control of today.
Sometimes I am confused about wat to do and who i want to become,sometimes i even hate myself for not conforming to normality.Sometimes i wonder aboutu right or wrong and yes or no.
But what if everyone is stick to conformity,what if everyone live for the sake of living.
Of course,sacrifices have to be made.But there is definitely things to gain.At least when you die,you won't regret for wasting your life way.
I am going to live the way I planned,so what if everyone else don't agree.
I want to be somebody and i will be somebody.

Learn to appreciate every little things.

I was surprised yesterday.
Thank you for the efforts you guys have put.
I really appreciated it.
And what else can I ask for?
Thank God for having such a wonderful group of friends.
I wish this feeling can last forever, at least for the next few years.

Met up with lovelies on Wed.
Finally everyone can meet together.
haha..Look forward to steamboat next week.



I guess sometimes I am giving myself too much pressure.
Demanding too much from myself.
I should learnt to appreciate every little things around me.
Not everyone can be billionmaire or famous.
There are lots and lots of commoners, who are also satisfied with themselves.
So what if you are not better than the others?
Though I am thinking this way,
I still want to give it a try.
At least there is 50,50 chance.
Hope my wish can come true.

My last post as a teenager

Of course, I can't stop myself from feeling sad about certain things.
But I guess that's the way life is.
Soon,I am no longer a teenager.
And I should stop myself from thinking as a teenager.

Let's look at the bright side.
Nothing is going to change even if you grumble.
So why waste the effort?
It's time to change about your thinking.

Let's all be selfish,
invest only when you see a return.
No point being a good soul.
No point to put in real feelings.
What you get in the end is only hurt and disappointment.

Come out, time to face the reality and cruelty of the world.
Stop living in that self illustional world.
20 is the right time to get some real taste of the world.
If not, you will still think that everyone is kind and true.

Being true and sincere will not make a difference.
So why make the extra effort?

No expectation, no disappointment.

Sometimes maybe we should provide doubtful debts for friendship too.

Sometimes you gain some and you lose some.

I need a job!

I am in need of a job!
In particular, a tuition assignment.
Oh God, please me let me find 1 more tuition assignment,
so that I can have some spear money.

There's a lot of things i want to do:
1.Buy some new clothes, I am so broke until no money to buy clothes.
2. Buy a tennis racket, even second hand ones will be good.I want to learn tennis.
3.Go for a hair cut, my hair is totally disguesting now.
4. Meet up with all my lovely friends, be it K box or just simple lunch or dinner.

Bless me to find a new tuition assignment soon!

Saw Liu Xuan on TV.I think he is cute and of course, charming.
Why can't I meet someone like him?haha..Dreaming in my wonderland again.

My volunteering experience

I started to do volunteer work at KK hospital about two weeks ago.
Today it's my second time doing volunteering work there.
My job is simple, just playing with the children in the ward.

Children are meant to be happy,to be free and to be healthy.
But not those children at the hospitals.
Obviously they don't smile as bright as those in this photo.
I know some of them are sad,
for the fact to be stuck in the hospital,
for the fact that they are sick.

The first day I volunteered did not expose me much to the hard side of life.
I thought they are just seeking treatment, after that they will be fine.


But some of them are seriously ill.
I saw a kid inside the lift, laying on the bed with an oxygen mask to help her to breath.
Her mum covered her eyes for her, so that she don't have to get nervous when looking around.
I can hear she breath,I know that she must be suffering.
There is another kid inside the ward, who is really naughty.
He gets aggressive sometimes,I couldn't understand why.
Then I knew that he is a special need kid and he is a regular of the hospital.
It won't feel good to be a regular of the hospital.

I know that I may not make a difference in their life,
but i think it will make a difference in mine.
Recently my WISP tutor showed this great movie,Hotel Rwanda.
You should really appreciate your life, at least we have the rights to enjoy our life.

Finally met up with sis after she was quarantined for 1 week.
She took lots of picture of London and Ireland, which makes me feel like going.
I really think it's time for me to think for my future,
and to be independent.
I have been too overly reliant.

20 is approaching.I don't think I am going to make any wish this year.
What is the point of wishing when wishes don't really come true?