I dunno how to start a post.
I dunno how to end a post.
There are many things i dunno in life.
But never mind.
Life still has to carry on.

Today we had a crazy lunch time.
Joice, the crazy women is making us laughing through out the lunch.
THen, i somehow get influenced by her.
I started singing and asking ppl to join BA comm with me.
Went library again.
It seems i have been going library for the past days.
I don't really like to be a recorder for BCA project. I am someone who is not very organized.
I dun really to record down the minutes.

I have nothing much to say about the ambassador games session.
All the people are so enthusiatic about NP ambassadors.
Maybe i should use a inverted comma.
It's not much about game session.It's more about showcasing of ur talents.
Kenny was there, but i didn't seen Hui Mei.
Upon the seeing of Kenny's face. i feel much more relieved.
SInce this kind of person can get into it, why can't i?
haha..The handsome Jonathan is there.

Sylvester has been boardcasting of my results to everyone around.
He said he is proud of me.
I dun think it's a good idea to spread it coz it's already over.
SO i tried to stop him, but...
Went for the NYAA meeting.
It's quite lame.
Nothing much.
WE had played a few games for the sake of knowing more ppl.
Can u imagine a group of 17,18 yr old teenagers are running around and playing hide and seek?
that's what we really did.
CCA points are important.
So Jia you la

In order to make myself back from abnormality, i decided to record my personal life inside my blog.
Most importantly, i want to update shell with my latest news.
We have not been seeing each other for days..
My dear, I really miss secondary school days.
Nothing much to say.
This week is simply too tiring for me.
So much project,
so much homework.
All the people around me, including myself are excellin.
I regretted voluntering to be the first presenter for Business Management,
luckily my partner is Slyvester.
He is a nice guy though he is a joker..
Honestly, i think he will end up together with Kim one day.
They are quite competitable.Haha
I have been hanging out in the library for the past few days.
But i wasn't studying most of the times.
Today i cancelled my job just for the sentosa outing.
Saw many familar faces there.
All the enthu BAians.
Some of the guys are really hot.
But i am not as interested as i did in the past.
The outing is not really a very enjoyable experience.
Get to know a few more seniors.
We all went back before the thing ends.
On the way back home,i was talking to Horace.
Then i realize that not only our class(HS E5)do have class bonding,
there are some classes who are even worse.

I want to go D&D, but recently i am too broke.
There's one reason motivate me to go,
but i don't want to write it out..
hehe...
To be continued..
PS: There are things which i am very pleased and there are things which i am very pissed..

I know that my blog will make ppl unhappy.
No choice if u accidently clicked on my blog.
I am this kind of person.
I am straight forward.
I don't like to hide so much.
If u have see the dark side of me,
that means u will know the real me.
I dunno if i am real or fake.
Still in the process of fingering it out.

An empty shell,
with a dead spirit.
and two splited personality.
That's me.
Hard to change.
I have been trying to change since i was 18.
Afterall,i am still the same.

How can revive myself?
Dunno.
Mayb i am just too tired.
After a nap,
i will be perfectly fine.

Suddenly i just feel like blogging.
Many thing to say.
Though it's only the second week of my poly life,i am totoally stressed out.
Firstly, academics.
I haven't used to the teaching method in poly yet.
I still not very sure about my results.
Many people are aiming to go to uni.
Getting AD is a difficult task.
I want to enjoy the process of successing.
But i want to the ending results to be good as well.
Feeling confused and unsecured.
Secondly,friendship.
So many hi and bye friends in the campus.
Though the number mayb insignificant compared to the number of students in school,
but i still consider the number as huge.
How many true friends?
Not many.
What does this show?
The opportunity cost of networking.
I really wish to get know some true friends in poly.
Lastly, relationship.
I have been living like a nan for the past three years.
Not totally like a nan,
but almost.
I am looking forward to a long lasting relationship,
something that can last until we grow old and die.
I have seen too many weddings.
I am still not immuned by the sight of the wedding.
Especially when the the couple are looking back to their early days.
when they are still schooling.
It's so damn good to sit down together with your old friends,
and looking back the older days.
What is yours will be yours.
I know,
but i just want to have someone to love me.
Sort of desparate,
i am desparate for true love,
not just hot guys.

什么是真，什么是假？什么是黑，什么是白？
我不想知道答案，
答案不能代表什么。
只要你是真的，
其他的什么都不重要。

Sometimes i really wish that i can see through the mind of others.
Human world is far too complicated.
Actually i am quite pissed off yesterday.
Not coz of the fact that i missed out the chance of going up the stage and get the bloody award.
It's more due to someone.
who is that?
Everyone knows.
What kind of frinend is she?
she's not my friend.
Not anymore since she indirectly declaimed that.
I have my principles.
I will not tolerate those people anymore.
It's time for u to learn some lessons.

Never mind about all those useless stuff.
I shall just concentrate on my new life.
Building up a new me in this brand new chapter.
WIsh i will have my dreams come true

好久都没有blog了。总是没有心情，写得东西也太缺少感觉。
昨天，偶然遇到小学同学。才发现原来我在别人的眼中其实是那样。
不过至少当时的我是比较我的我，
可是现在的我，真的对自己太不了解。
我到底是怎样的？是活泼的，是疯的，是忧郁的，是成熟的，还是根本什么都不是？
今天遇到qiu rong，一个中学的朋友。以前跟她不是很熟，可是今天见到了我却有种再见到了老朋友的感觉。
可能因为这几天真的太压抑了，我才会像太多，太多不该想的东西。
想又有什么用，我只会做幻想家，有多少时候我真的付出行动，有多少时候我的行动得到回报过。
所以，没大脑才是最大的幸福。

祝我快乐幸福。

I am feeling weird.
A kind of mixed feelings.
Hard to describe.
Every talk is about the importance of networking,
ya,,i know it's important.
But i jus dunno how to do it.
To achieve the standard of sophiscation.
hard.
Wish all the things can go smoothly.

I am recovered.
Thanks to my dear buddies..
For cheering me up
I finally understand the preciousness of friendship.
When u have it all along,
u will not realize it.
When u r about to lost it,
then u will know how precious it is.
Dears, i will love u all forever.

18th birthday, shell said she will book a chalet for me.
That's something i am looking forward to/
Never have proper celebrations before.
NOt since i was 5..
should be.
If i am not getting senile.
I will not expect much,.
Just something simple and plain.
As long there's someone celebrating with me.
I am more than satisfied.

poly is starting soon.
I have just adjusted my mood.
so i think i should have no more problems with that.
hehe,,
hopefully..
I just wish all my wishes can come true.

Suddenly i feel so depressed..
No i should said i am always depressed。
i just can't control the fluctuation of emotions inside me
I am feeling totally lost.
Have no confidence towards my poly life,
I should be enthusiastic about it.
But i just can't.
Nothing much to talk to my group members in the camp.
I felt so left out sometimes.
Feel like crying in the middle of the dancing session.
Hope it will be fine after school starts.
I want to be the golden graduate,
so i have to try very hard.
For anything and everything.

QUite sick of life,
but i have no intention of dying.
Many things still ahead of me.
I shouldn't waste my life away.
Hope there will be something to cheer me up tmr,
then my mood can be adjusted to the happy mood.

I really hope everything will be smooth sailing as what i expected for my poly life . I can't afford any more obstacles..