Another Emo Post

If you are born to be a turtle,you are meant to carry the heavy shell for the rest of your life.
So it's human being.
You are forever who you are.
No matter how hard you tried, there is nothing you can change.
I thought that working hard can change one's destiny,
but i am wrong.
A totally wrong assumption.
Whenever that i am getting slightly closer to what i want,
i got beaten.
I am back to the square ones again.
The fact is life is too cruel.
How i wish i can be someone who have no worries about their rountine life?
How i wish i can be someone born with silver spoon?
I worked, I work and I have to continue working.
I am tired too,but i can't rest.
There is so much stress that is exerting on me.
It's driven me crazy.
Maybe i am too greedy.There are lots of people who don't even have the basics to live.
Their life are even at risk. At least I got the chance to live, I should be happy with that,right?
I hate struggling with life.
But that's what i am doing everyday.
I hate acting in my own life.
But I am always posing as another me in front of the others.
Not many people understand my situation.
Not many people care to understand my situation.
Anyway I am not a good soul.Maybe I did too many bad deeds, that's why I deserve to live this way.
If there is God, Can i ask God a question?
Why am I having such a hellish life?
Stop telling me it's a test that everyone of us have to gone through.
I have no more energy to withstand any blow.
If I die, will anyone miss me?

Disappointed!

I am so so so disappointed!
I thought that study harder can get me a better result.In the end,what's this?
I thought that at least I can get a GPA of 3.7 or above.But it falls to 3.5.
Far below my expectation.
Yes..I got AD,but no use.
The point is that I got a C+ and B, which pull me GPA down.
Disappointed.
Maybe I should really studyhard next sem.

I know my temper is getting bad.
I hate to have bad temper,but no choice.Things just make me so irritated.
Maybe that's one of the reason that I am still single and left on the shelf.
Money doesn't come easy.
You stand there for so long, with your feet tearing apart, with whatever nonsence you get from the captain or manager, you can only get $6 per hour.
One hour is only $6.
Today i suddenly feel like crying while I was working.
Those guest are so inconsiderate. Of course, they don't have to considerate.
They are the one who is paying you,why should they be considerate to you?
The world is very realistic. No money, no dignity.
I am trying all my best to save up to my target.
But it's hard.Time is limited and job is tiring.
I don't know whether i have the preserverance to make it through or not.
Maybe one day money is going to drop from the sky.
When is that day?
For now i know that money doesn't come easy.
My pathetic mother work so hard, exhausting out her health,yet we are still so poor.
Not everyone is born with silver spoon in their mouth.
Not everyone can anyhow spend their money without thinking.
At least, every cent of mine is a result of my hard work.Really hard.