爱情

到底什么是爱情呢？
我不知道，因为我从来都没拥有过。
以前的人，可以一生一世，
为了爱的人放弃一切。
现在的人，恋爱好想吃快熟面，添饱肚子就好了。
有华丽的外表，在加上甜言蜜语的包装，好像这就是爱吧。
这也难怪。
如果结果都一样，谁不希望另外的一半是漂亮的，身材好的，至少看起来也舒服。
时间久了，谁不希望有点新鲜感？就算再爱吃的东西，吃久了也想换换口味。
看到更好的，谁不想试试看？人都是很有上进心的。
热恋中的甜言蜜语到了失恋的时候就变成了谎话连篇。
结婚也不过是为了增加安全感而造成的麻烦。
真的还有爱吗？
可能吧，只是它永远都不属于我。

I am feeling very bad today.
Somehow i just feel like crying.
Work is like the drama.
Fighting,politics and hypocrisy.
I am wondering what type of the person should I be.It seems that good soul always end up in poor plight.
It seems like one must be good at boots licking or so call socializing in order to do well in the corporate world.

Maybe life is the same.
You treat people too well,
in the end you became the one who is being hurt.
也许我应该收起真正的面孔，
不再有话就说，
不再无畏的付出，
不再对别人好，
不再报有任何幻想。
这个世界好残忍，好现实。我不是三好，
没她那么的幸运。
可能我会变成金玲，
谁知道呢？

Still expecting some miracles to happen.

New perspective

When you change an angle, you will see things differently.
Of course,I am still the two sided me.
Sometimes sunny bright, sometimes stormy grey.
It does not stop me from seeing things in a new perspective.
N0 reason for making yourself unhappy.

Work is pretty ok now.
I started to get better with collegues.
Had lunch with my boss on friday.
He drove us to parkway parade.
haha..Free ride and free lunch.
Then the other interns bought donuts for us.
haha..It's free again.
Then my very funny Indian coll gave me some snacks coz I laughed at him.
haha..So I have free stuff for the entire day..

Dance lesson is fun.
More salsa dance this week.
Hopefully I can continue my passion in it.
And my fire does not die off so soon.

I want to go shopping.
I am becoming a shopholic.
Someone,please go shopping with me.
haha..

I am indulging myself in the world of drama.
Real life is full of imperfections.
Drama is the only things to satisfy your wishes.
So why break up your dreams as long as you are happy with it?

I am still dreaming of myself walking on 5th Ave,
Times Squares, Wall streets and Upper East side.
I may be giving it a miss now,
but it does not mean that I am giving it forever.
I will get it, just a matter of time.

Christmas is coming.
Santa,please give me better presents this year.

Today I didn't go to work.
Decided to give myself a break.
Seriously I feel very drain due to work.
Watching Korean Drama at home.
Indulge myself in fantasy.

I am very drama kind of person.
My imagination tend to go wild sometimes.

Maybe I will be good a story write if I continue to write.

But the problem is that I stopped writing for so long.

Now I don't know where to start.

One day holiday is not really enough.

Hope that my attachment will end soon.

I was sicked from Friday until today.
Dunno will I be ok tomorrow.
I think sickness is making my mind going to be sicked.
Again, I start to wonder about my position in life.
Yesterday when i was browsing through facebook,
I realized that one of my friend actually got in Uni of Penn.
Wow.Besides wowing, I don't know wat to say.
My life long dream that people can achieve like so easily.
The questions come again.
What do I really want?
What can I really do?

Salsa lesson later on.
At least it is something that I can look forward to each week.
Nowadays I really lose interest in almost everything.
What is wrong with me?

Christmas is coming in 1 month plus times.
Hopefully this year I will have a wonderful christmas.
My dream kind of christmas.

Had my first salsa lesson on sunday.
It is full of fun.
At least I can relax myself during the one hour.
And Salsa made me feel like a lady.haha.

One moment, I thought that I can fully enjoy my life,my youth.
The next moment, reality hits me.
I still have to struggle so much.
There is not a single day that I can stop worrying about such problems.
When is that day coming?

Tomorrow is a better day.
I will still face it with a smile no matter how hard it's going to be.