我好像好像飞，逃离这个疯狂的世界。
If I got to choose, I won't choose to born in this family.
If I got to choose,I won' want to be the me that I have been.

Leaving

刚刚从机场回来，捷升现在应该在太平洋的上空了吧。
本来还没觉得什么，直到她走了现在觉得有点难过。
以前的时候大家要见面就能见面，
现在好像都没什么机会了。
不知道什么时候才有可能见到她。
很多时候，人就是这样，
当东西失去了才会觉得珍惜。
希望她能好好保重，
好好照顾自己，
毕竟一个人在陌生的环境里生活是不容易的。

她的行李


United airways

离别的背影

我们

Ying Ying 和捷升



也许我们都该在失去之前学着去珍惜

This Christmas

Nothing fanciful about this christmas,
parties,gifts and friends.
I am alone on christmas eve again.Years and years,it is always the same.
2005,I am too sick to crawl out my house.
2006,I am working in conrad.
2007,I don't remember what I have done.
2008,gathering at bestie's house is cancelled.
Maybe I am just a bit unlucky with Christmas eve.

This christmas I received four very wonderful gifts.
1.A wallet that Bestie bought for me from Africa.
2.Customized name

3.Very lovely egg with my favourite cartoon character.

4.Sis bought me a saving box when I told her I am having finanical problem.

I think they both took ages to finish up them.
Ok.At least it will took me hours to do that.
Thank you so much for the wondeful wondeful gifts.
I really appreciate your efforts.

Chatted with my lovely friends in mac after the gathering.
My feeling is contradicting.
It's a wonderful feeling to have them around.
But then the fact that I will not be seeing them so often soon saddens me.

Oh.Ya..Why is bus/MRT service not extended on Christmas?
Hope every year my christmas can be so wonderful!
Looking forward to new year.
And hope i can get rid of financial crisis in 2009.

Finally I have sent the christmas cards out.
It took me ages to finish those cards
Sometimes I am just stuck with what to write.

2009 is coming.It's going to be a new start.

Maybe I am just an alien, human world is simply hard to understand.

Went for christmas party organized by Ivy just now.
Have many wows that I want to said out.
Wow No 1: There are people who can get lost in orchard.
In fact, we actually can get lost in orchard.
Though the condo is at orchard, we cannot find the place.
In the end,we end up taking cab to the place which is only 2 bus stop away.

Wow No 2:It's a small world.
According to Amanda,Ivy's sis, Lee Kuan Yew's grandchildren are there.
There are 2 very funny guys,in their 30s are said to be Lee Kuan Yew's grandchildren.
The only thing I can say it's what a small world.
Anyway it's a hearwarming christmas party,
nice place,nice food and nice people though I don't know them well.

Chatted with Bing Rong after the party.
It has been 4 years since we knew each other.
Time flys.We joined TXY 4 years ago.
Last time we were newbies,
last time we were super active,
last time we spent so much time in SPH.
Now no more,at least not for me.
Ever since I quitted from the role of group leader,
no. of trips to SPH dropped drastically.

Well, I didn't regret my decision.
If I didn't quit,then i won't have such time for school activities.
It's a trade-off.
But sometimes my decision will just let people down.
I think I have let Wei Zheng and many more down by quitting,
when they put so much hope on me,
I simply walked away with their hopes.

Hopefully in future I won't do that again,
at least I will have some control over myself before any decision is made.
Maybe more self-discipline,so that I can really start on my econos project soon.
Though my project is not going to save the world from the financial crisis,
it's going help to me pass my econs.

I just realize how much flaws I have.
In order to help me to become a better person,
you can feedback to me if you spoted any.
Though you may not give any dining voucher,
I will be thankful to your help.
Coz most of the times we cannot spot the flaws in ourselves.



One last thing is that though that I have not found any perfect man that I am longing for,
but thank God there are a lot of good woman around,like bestie.Life is wonderful with them around.
Monday I am going to disappear into natural reserve

Get to know yourself

Just came back from school,attended My Scholarship Experience,

what they shared is really useful, not just to application of scholarship,

but more towards personal development.

Well,I have been with myself for 19 years.

But how well do i know myself?

Today I am going to list down wat do i know about myself.

It's good to sort out your thoughts sometimes,

at least you won't be wondering about what you are doing.

1.What are your strength and weakness?

Strength:I am creative.I am full of new ideas and I like to implement new ideas to improve on the current situation.

I am friendly.I like to work socialize and make new friends.

I am enthusiastic.When I am doing what i like,I will put 101%into to make it happen.

Weakness:I am lacking of preverance.Sometimes when I encounter problems,then I will give up and not able to last.

I am emotional unstable.My mood swing uncontrollably and it affects my life.

2.What do you want to do in future?

Well, I want to change the world, at least make changes to the world.

I want to be a super rich who is able to make a difference in many people's life.

I want to set up a foundation, I want to build schools, I want to help the poor,I want to provide scholarships,I want to help people to get out of poverty.

In order to become a super rich,maybe I want to be an economist first, who can forecast the economic prospect of the world.

3.What do you like?

I like to play sports, trying new things,organizing event,making people happy,singing,watching movies, writing,donating money and giving out presents.

4.What you want do after you graduated from poly?

I want to go the states, I want to study economics or business in University of Pennsylvania.

Well, my answers sounds very noble and idealistic.No harm dreaming of big dreams.Hopefully I will have enough determination to work towards it.

If you want to sort out your life, if you don't want to have an aimless life,then think about it and write it down if you want.

It's really hard to go after your big dream.
Everyone has just one chance to live or rather if we are cats.
We can only choose one type of life style.
Can i afford to lose my dream?
I cannot,coz it's not just my dream,it's many people's dreams too.
I have to carry them out no matter of what.
Big dream,big ambition,big hope.
Yet the gap between dream and reality is big too.
Serious it is a tiring job or rather tiring life.
But I still have to chase after it.
It's a must.

I have developed this peculiar fondness towards writing movie review.
No facts but entirely opionions.
Watched the day the earth stood still yesterday.
It is a movie that I enjoyed a lot coz it got something to do with alien.
Though the plot is very predictable,i can guess almost the whole story out after the first 15 minutes,
the message they are trying to bring about is good.
If we continue to take earth for granted,
something will happen one day.
I like the part when they make critics about US government,
and the Obama campaign,we want change.
(Those things are not show in the movie,but implied)

Today I watched this 1939 movie,called gone with the wind.
If the prior movie I will give a rating of 7, this one will be a 9 or 9.5.
Though the background movie is bit old and technology is not so advance back then,
what you see through the movie is simplicity,what you feel through the movie is complexity.
If the movie is not good,it will not last until today.
Imagine 10 years later,will you still remember movies like House Bunny or Wild Child.

Watching movie is really a good thing.
Or rather watching good movie is really a good thing.
It stirs up your feelings,
It makes you reflect,
It help you to activate your brain.
More movies on my list,I am going to slowly enjoy them.

Sometimes when you want everything,then you may end up with nothing.

Craving for world peace

World peace.
Can I just have some peace?
Ending nagging and distrubance.
Why can't you just leave me with some peace?

All you want is the a perfect daughter.
Good grades,good conduct, good in everything.
But did she ever care about the enduring process.

Christmas party photos.
Christmas Atmosphere is everywhere.

Us with the super active kid.

Ice cream

At the door step.

A lot of things have been going through my mind this few days.
Let's explain those in economic terms.
Since economics is really useful to explain my point.
There is an opportunity cost behind everything.
You have to sacrifice some to gain some.

Whether to make the sacrifice or not,
you need to do a cost and benefit analysis.
But the problem I am having now is lack of information.
I cannot list down all the benefits and costs.
So it is hard for me to make comparison.

Enough of this confusing theories,
save the profoundness for the economist.
I still have a lot of plan yet to be executed.
Got to do them during the holidays.
For example,hiking to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve,Sugei Beloh
Visit to Museums,(Toys Museum,art museum, asian civilisation museum)
Exercise.(Tons of sports I want to do, espcially tennis.I want to learn tennis.)
Meet up with my lovely friends,
K box and many more things.

It has been long since we have such a good chat.
Stay happy and don't let anything affect u.

I am sorry,

I really feel sory towards someone at this point of time.
Sorry for not contributing.
Sorry for making you do all the work;
Sorry for not able share the workload with you.
Sek Kim Man,I am really.
You are the best.

In the mood for christmas

Though this is the common test period, but Christmas is coming!
Went to Rohei Christmas party yesterday.
So glad to see Ivy,Justin,Ciel and many more.
It has been long since I last saw them.

Christmas Tree and presents

Popcorns.

More photos to be uploaded when I receive them from Ciel. It's really nice to see them around.
It's a blessing that we get to know each other and we can still keep in touch with one another after so long.
So glad to hear that Jasmine and Tony are engaged.Hope they can hold their wedding soon,then I can have the chance to attend.haha

Thanks for the heart to heart talk,I am feeling so much better after talking to you.

Christmas is coming.More parties to come.