Finally I am done!

I am finally done with summary paper though there is a lot need to be edited.
I don't think I am going to do anything about the editing part.
It have totally drained me.
Even a doctor degree thesis is not so torturing.
Though I don't know how a doctor degree thesis is like.
For today alone,I have been spending more than 12 hours to do it.
Luckily it's all over now!


I shall study for common test.
Study for common test is not so taxing as doing the summary paper.
The amount of stress and workload almost drive me crazy
Entering into the world of economics tomorrow.
I have keep the faith though life is disappointing at times.
Evolution of the world does not mean that you have to change with the world.

I love powerpuff girls.Thanks for the support.

stagnant

I have been stuck in front of my lappy for hours and hours.
Half of the summary paper is completed. Still left another 10 or more pages to go.
The deadline is tomorrow.To be exact,I still got another 23 hours to the deadline.
40% and I cannot afford to fail.
As long as this term is over,I will be free.

Well, according to my friend's advice of taking an active approach,
I took the initiative to sms him yesterday.
But the answer is not as expected.
I think I am totally wrong.
Never mind.Anyway there is no possiblity between us.
Off to do my summary paper.

Happy thanksgiving day!

Sometimes lessons just get too bored,you will start to find things to entertain yourself.
We are the power puff girls.

Bubble, staring Kim Man.
Blossom, staring Xiao Tong.
Buttercup, staring me.
We are the powerpuff girls.

I deleted all the recent emo post.
Seriously I have no reason to emo.
Just chat up with a long time friend.
A friend I had for 13 years.

Thank you for your encouragement.
Thanks for everyone's concern.
I should look at the bright side.
I should not lose faith so easily.
Actually stress are nothing.There's definitely a way to solve all the problems.

Going to meet the Indonesian students tomorrow.

Sometimes thing just stop at the wrong timing.
It's going to be over soon.
Chances of seeing each other again is low.
Maybe it's just fate.

My class and me

I have not talk much about my class in poly,

it's not that I don't feel anything about it.
It's just that I dunno where to start and how to start.


Firstly,not for the sake of being politically correct,
I am really glad to be in class,not any other class.
From birthday celebration,outings,and heart to heart talk,
I can really feel the warmth of the class.
That's why i am so scared of lossing the feeling,lossing the bonding.
I tried hard to keep everyone feel the same way as I do,
I just hope everyone else can put in a little bit more effort to substain this feeling.
All relationship need to be maintained,is it?


Secondly,I want to apologise to all of them.
Sometimes my temper and emotion are just out of my control.
I have a very stubborn character.
Sorry for throwing tempers,showing attitudes at times.
I will try to control it and don't let it go out of hands.

This post is going to be long coz I want to write about a lot of people,
though they may not have the chance the to see this post.


1.Sylvester. I know sometimes you dunno what we are thinking,it's the same for me too.
Though we quarrel quite often,I regard you as one of my best guy friend.
Sometime u may say I am gaybo or something,it's just my way of showing concern.
I want to know how my friends are doing,but i dunno how to ask in a nicer manner.
Sometimes I dun mean what I have said,for example you are acting like a father.
It's a good thing to have such a friend,rather than someone who don't even care.
Sorry for the negative remarks.Sometimes my words just come out of my mouth without thinking. Hope you can understand that.


2.Xue Feng.If you think i am putting too much pressure on you,I am really sorry.
I just hope that I can do something to help my friends to achieve their dreams.I am scared of losing.I am scared of losing you too.
That's why I keep on bringing up the NRA issue.Just hope that beside dancing,you can still see friends like me. Really thanks a lot for listening to my endless woes and not so funny jokes.
You become one of the driving force to keep me going when I am lossing my momentum.


The rest of the people I will continue another day.I am tired and there is Bcom networking session tomorrow.Plus there is dialogue with permanent secretary of MTI tmr.I don't even have time to do tutorial.
Photos from amazing race trial.I finally got them.










Photos from xiao tong's birthday.
one photo from quite sometimes ago.
I feel the feeling is glowing inside me.Hopefully it's not the bad feeling again this time round.

I just realize that I got so many things on hand.
Response paper;
Summary paper;
Long Report;
MA project;
FIT project;
Endless Tutorials;
Bamp.

I have no time to do this and that.
No time to work.
That's why my bank account balance is slow.
Until I have to put down my pride and ask my mum for money.

I just hope that I can cope well with all this;
Have to find a way to save my grades.
Wish me good luck for upcoming events.

Xiao Tong's Birthday Celebration.Finally she is 18!

Random Photo No 1.

Lack of time.

I skipped RFA lecture to do MA project.
Well, people maybe puzzled by my action.
But seriously I am running out of time.
Too much things to do,
yet too little time.
Projects,
CCA,
work.
And many more.
Why we are human beings who have only 24 hours per day?
Why is not 48 or 72 hours per day?
I know next week is going to be worse.
Next next week i will be busier than next week.
If I can stop procastinating;
If I can be more efficient;
If I can multi tasking at multiple places.
Then I think I won't be worried about shortage of time.

To many,I am sorry for not being attend this and that.
I will try to do whatever that I can do for everything.
My thoughts have no changed.
I just that graduation day can come really soon.

I think I should take more control of my emotions.
At least I should not let people around people worry too much.
Soon my sunny bright smile will be back again.
Halloween photos.


A ghostly figure.

Village portrait.I am the elderly there.

Village portait again.

Fighting scene

Celebrated NP's 45th birthday. We actually planted a tree in school. Imagine 15 or 20 years down the road, when you are back to NP,then you see your small tree becomes a huge tree.Wow..
Engineering performance

My buddies in society

Congrats to Obama for becoming US first black president.

Changes are needed.

Not just for US,for everything and everyone else.

I know that I should not be write too much emo post.It's going to affect the people around people.And people will know the dark side of me.
But if I cannot be truthful to myself,who else can i be true to?
People often said that what i wrote is different from my behaviour.
For years and years,I have portray myself as an outing,bubbly person.
Only very few people know the other side of me.
Now my acting skill is more polished.
I can simply fake out a bright sunny smile when I am totally depressed.


Why are you so depressed?
You are not in your normal self.
Your results is so good,where is there to worry?
Questions and questions.Not out of concern,but out of curiosity.
My answer is always nothing followed with a super fake smile.


Facts No 1:
I am really sick of school.
I feel like quiting school.
Well,I am not as talented as Bill Gates who can afford to quit school.
If I really quit school,what can i do?Will my life will be better?
Maybe I will just end up being a lowly paid factory worker or shop keeper,
who cannot earn up to support herself.What about those big dreams that I had when I was young?
I don't hate studying.I love to know new things.
I just hate going to school.It is getting chaotic in school.
Friends,projects and everything else.
Who is friend and who is not?It's a problem harder than chicken and egg.


Facts No 2:
I am having a bad relationship with my mum.
I am trying to be more fillial, she is trying to be nicer to me.
But somehow we ended up quarrel more and more.
Yes..She brought me up,she suffered a lot over the days.
I have to repay her.
That's one of the reason that keep me alive until today.
The gap between us is widening like the widen income gap.
Maybe I am too pity,I just cannot forget about what she has done.
She thinks I can forget about it.
She thinks I can recover so soon from it.
But I am not.
Those things are still haunting me down.


I used to have this thing call feeling;
I used to hold this power call confidence;
I used to possess this jewel call motivation.
Now I have none of them.
I am reaching the bottle neck of my life.
Another walking dead body.


You should be more optimistic.
Don't be emo.
If we are get rid of depression so easily,
why there are so many people are commiting suicide everyday?
In the past, I have good memories to pre-occupy myself.
Now,good memories are gone.Only the bad ones are left behind.
I don't see myself going anywhere
What can a dead soul achieve without any motivation?

I just hate the way I am.
Shower me with your pity if you think I am a beggar.