My temper is getting bad this few days.
I think my character is shaped a lot by it.
Many people have told me or rather warn me about it,
the fact is I did not listen.I chose to believe my heart.

But now my heart seems is telling me that I did the wrong thing.
I did not have the ability to do those things.
I am too incapapble, to the standard that people have to scream at me at what to do.
Well, it never happen in my entire life.
Now it happened.

Sometimes I really doubt at my choice,
the opportunity cost seems to be really high.
Maybe it's something to make you grow.
One cannot enjoy her life always,
she got to get over some obstructions for her grow.

Soon,it will be over.
I have to preserve through.
No point of fighting over unnessary things,
If people aren't noble, it doesn't mean you have to be like them.

Photos from chinatown trip with Bestie.

I am feeling sorry for many people.
Sorry bestie for not able to celebrate your birthday with you.
Happy 19th birthday!
Sorry for not able to send sister off for her Ireland attachment.
Sorry for screaming at mum due to my bad temper.
Sorry for letting people who pin hopes at me down.

Suddenly I miss the sub-com days so much.

看着旧照片
感动很多，
舍不得也很多，
每天没有他们的日子，
可能真的会很寂寞。

是时候学会坚强的时候，
是时候学会勇敢的时候，
就算自己再懦弱，
也要坚持下去，
不能让周围的失望，
更不能让自己失望，
最不能让梦想失望。

我知道好多时候，
我都想太多。
不知道是大脑太过复杂，
还是里面的程序出了问题。
其实，我要的真的很简单。
一个好梦就让我让我开心一整天。
希望我能做个好梦

Changes in life

Went to Haji Lane last sat with Yu Rong.
Haji lane changed a lot,really a lot.
Not terms of structure,but atmosphere.
Back to 2 or 3 years,when I went there the first time.
I totally fell in love with the place.
It's peaceful, artistic and full of surprises.
I still remember this independent music shop, called Straits Record,
where I spent almost my entire day.
It's no longer there, it moves to somewhere else.
Now there whole street is full of people,
people smoking sisha(I dunno how to spell it).

Everyone changed a lot after graudate.
Many become so busy, until no time to meet up.
I am considered to be one of the them.
The last time I met up with Yu Rong is like 1 month again.
Unlike that time, we used to spend days and days together.
Now,everything is different.

Bestie wrote something on her blog,
which make me feel very touched, yet guilty.
Maybe I simply focus too much on CCAs.
Yes..It's good to be committed.
But,I simply forgone my times with them.
With my lovely friends.
I should spend more times with them.
Friendships need to be nurished.
Fate brought people together, to know one another, to become friends
and to be there for one another.
If we don't treasure it,
it maybe taken away without your notice.

Museum visit is fun.
I will go to more musuems after exam.
I know it's a bit selfish,
but I cannot give up my entire life for one thing.
It will end eventually,
but life still has to go on.

I have a dream

I had a lot of dreams before.
Teacher, president, business woman, poet,singer and etc.
Today i suddenly realize I have a more realistic dream.
If I work hard, it's acheiveable.
I want to buy a house at age of 26.
And I want to be a developer by 40.
Though I have a lot of things on hand now,
i can never stop dreaming.
I want to continue to dream,
and make my dream come true one day.
*Not just in sleep.

Jogging

Just came back from a long jog.

Tired but contented.

I have not been running for so long for ages.

I think I completed aroun 4 Km, at least 3Km plus.

Acutally I ran for 500m, then I felt a bit tired and wanted to go home.

On the way home, then I saw Joel.

Amazingly,he had been jogging all the way from CCK to Bukit Batok.

So I decided not to go back and continue to jog with him.

We went jog around Bukit Batok Nature Park, then went to Bukit Timah,

and then to Hillview Avenue, from there I jogged back home.

In total, I think I have run for around 3-4Km.

And the amazing thing is that I didn't stop, I managed to jog that long at one go.

Haha..I think that's the longest I jog in the past 2 or 3 years.

I shall continue to train, so that can get rid of my excessive fats.

Plus, jogging helps me to destress.

It helps me to brighten up my day and straighten out my thinking.

I brought a small pot of cactus on Valentine's day.

Something like the one in the pic, but smaller.

Hope this cactus can keep me motivated.

Be strong like a cactus and have the resilence.

Exams are just round the corner.

Dunno what kind of grades will I get this sem.

Hopefully it's something of my expectation.(3.9,I really hope)

MA:AD,RFA:A, FIT:A, Tax:A, TDP:AD, UR:A, Bcom:B+

My goal may sounds a bit unrealistic,

but I really hope for that grades.

All the best for me and everyone.

Bamp is the worst camp I ever had.
Nothing is worse than this.
I had the worst planning experience in my life time.
Maybe it's a training.
Train myself to work with people that I can't work with.
****.
I don't scold bad words, but they just come out of my mouth.
I have problem with managing this kind of situation.
I cannot think properly as I used to.
I need help.Angel,help me if there is one.

Some random photos we took last week, after our FIT and Bcom presentation.
With our advisor in LT68E.

Evidence of murder.



Very extra Sylvester

K box price raised so much.

We wanted to go K box on Monday, then realize that it's so expensive.

There must be something wrong K Box's pricing decision.

Don't they know that the economy is bad.

Haiz..There is very little entertainment that we can have.


Monday is Lunar Jan 15th.

So we had Tang Yuan.

It's really funny to eat Tang Yuan outside someone's shop.

But anyway it's pretty fun coz those people that I am eating with.

Today's Sub-com interview is really tiring.
It reminds me of my interview.

It's hard to be a interviewee, it's even harder to be interviewer.

Finally I knew the reason why they laugh during my interview.

我真的该减肥了，才放在自己现在肥成这样。

如果要是睡醒就能瘦下了，拿就好了。

I know that not everyone is so understanding.
Not everyone know that you are busy with a lot of things;
Not everyone know that some of the things are your needs, not your wants;
It's ok.I don't need the world to understand.

This semester is ending soon.
How I wish it will not end so fast?
I will not be able to be in the same class with them again.
It sounds childish, espcially for me.
But the fact of not be able to see them make me sad, sometimes I even feel like crying.

Nobody is going to listen to my grumble;
Nobody is going to go crazy with me;
Nobody is going to sing with me;
And nobody is going to be there to support me,make me feel like someone.
I am back to nobody again.

I felt this way 2 years back, when I was about to graduate from HS.
And this feeling is back to me again and this time round is even stronger.
I don't know will be like next semester.
I really start to regret about my choice initially.
I cannot turn back the time,
All I can do is to face it with a smile and
not give up so easily.

Problems are everywhere.
I just wish this can be over as soon as possible.
现在的我真的太认真，
这个世界似乎需要的不是认真的人，
至少不是我这种人。