Updates

I think things are getting a lot better than what is used to be,
or at least my perspective of things changed drastically.
Nowadays my relationship with my mum improved significantly,
she looks happier than she used to be too.

Well, I am still stuck with poverty.
My stocks are not doing well.
And there is still one important part of my life that is still missing.
Hopefully that missing piece can be filled up soon.
I really hope what I have discussed with mum yesterday can come true:)

I want to be pretty.

I want to be pretty.

I want to be pretty.

Or at least, a bit slimmer.

Life as it is

I went to see psycharist today.
After thinking about it for so long,
I finally decided to go ahead and see one.
Hopefully it will change something.

Had a crazy evening at ADM building with Marine and Li Rui.
It seems uni life is getting more and more wonderful.
The only part that is incomplete is still the same thing.
Perhaps someday it will change.
But when is the day?

Goals for this year:
1.Find my love.
2.Improve on my photography skill.
3.Continue writing
4.Find something that I am really interested in.
5.Travel more

Perhaps i shouldn't be expecting too much from myself.
What do you keep on comparing yourself with others?
At the end of the day, what it matters is how you feel, not how well you do.

Burma VJ

After watching this documentary, I found that my worries are pretty lame. What I am worrying is so small little stuff that is so insignificant as compare to the livehood of a country. This documentary is the best that I have seen so far. It arose my interest to see burma. I will definitely go to Burma one day.

昨天是Comm Fun 的mid term，考完试我就和Xiao Chen, Jing Jing去Jurong Point大吃大喝了。他们四个人要一起去bali,可惜那个时候我要去美国，要不然就能跟他们一起去旅行啦。虽然我喜欢背包，但是偶尔跟朋友出去奢侈享受一下也不错。好久都没有过的这么开心自在啦。 晚上去看了JDC的表演，虽然我觉得他们表演的一般，但是让我下定了要努力学跳舞的决心，我最大的问题就不能专心，把一样东西做好。今年一定要努力改掉这个毛病啊。

要加油啦，不能再这么浪费人生了。人生只有一次啊。

I simply love chilling at the Starbucks, espcially the outlet at Westcoast Plaza. The ambience is simply awesome. I am really glad that my relationship with my mum has improved so drastically. Now we are more like friends who talk about almost everything. She mentioned something that makes me really happy. I wish that it can really come true. Then my 10 years of hardwork will be paid off. Played basketball with Belinda and Hui Yi in SRC. I am totally a noob in playing basketball. It just feels so good to sweat your heart out.

Walked around the school with Cassie last night. For the first time, i know that the school is so big. Finally I have some feeling for the school. I really hope that by the end of my 3 years here, I will feel reluctant to go. I hope that I will miss this place just like how I always miss my other schools. Out of sudden, I feel like writing letter. I feel like writing letters to a lot of people. To those I am sorry for, to those I am grateful for, to those I feel there is a need to write to them. I know it seems kind of stupid. Why can't you just talk to them about it? Perhaps a lot of things are hard to say it out. I think it's time to do something to salvage my friendship with all those people. Or to improve on my relationship with them. I want to watch the red dragon flies. Joy is acting in the movie. But too bad the tickets are sold out at SAM. Have to find alternatives.

整天都在听方炯镔的歌，特别是不必在乎我是谁。
我觉得歌词特别的适合我现在的心情.
我觉得有点累 我想我缺少安慰
我的生活如此乏味 生命象花一样枯萎.

很多时候都在想，为什么自己的生活变成这样。
可能是因为我自己不懂得珍惜以前的生活，
现在变成这样，只能自己怪自己贪心。
一直都要求太多，生命给了自己太多机会。

不懂得珍惜，就变成今天这种局面。
每次都是这样，遇到好人我就不懂得珍惜。
遇到坏人，我就主动去找他们。

迷失，真的很迷失。
不知道未来何去何从。
关于朋友这个问题，
我也是一样的担心。

算了，反正一切冥冥自有安排，
很多东西强求不来的。
就象爱情，能遇到就遇到吧，
遇不到就算了。
人生还是要继续的。

偶尔会想到他，应该不是爱情，
只是一种依靠。
毕竟认识他那么多年，不是说能忘记就忘记的。
就像他也不可能忘记他心里的那个人。
至少很多回忆都是美好的，
虽然我只能算个代替品。

我住的地方离他越来越近，但是距离却越来越远。
慢慢的都淡忘了。
慢慢的都失去了。

可能最好的方法就是放下，放下过去的一切。
总是跟过去做比较有什么好的呢。

I need some guidance.
Can someone show me the light?