勇气

谁能告诉我人要怎样才能有勇气去做我想做的东西？

Thank you,Bestie

I hate to be mushy.
Neither I am someone who likes to express my love and my feelings to others.
But I have to dedicate this post to my bestie, Shell.
Thank you all this friendship and love.
Thank you sharing your happiness with me.
Thank you for making me so homely.
Thank you for everything you have done.

I cannot ask for more.
Perhaps one good friend is more than a world of acquitance.

Where will I be 5 years from now?

where will I will be 5 years from now? Will I be happy for the way my life is?I hope the answer is yesyes 

Actually my day is not that bad.

B&H made me happy.

I am really happy to have them as my friends.

I wish that they could be there forever in my life.

I think my life is lack of passion now.
As what bestie has said, I am feigning happiness sometimes.Well, that's true.I am so scared of failures, which resulted me in not daring to try anything at all.
So what if you have failed?Life is all about failing and getting up.I need to find something that can really make me happy.
I want my youth to be memorable and fulfilling.
I want some sparks in life.

Morning Reflection

I woke up early this morning to do some work.
At the same time, I decide to do some reflection.

Firstly, I think I have should be happy about my life and stop demanding for more.
The problem with me is that I never get satisfied enough for life.
I always crave for more even though I already have a lot in life.
You are in uni now, you have good friends around you,
your mum supports you and you don't have to worry that much anymore.
What else can you ask for?

Secondly,I should motivate myself and be more disciplined.
Stop using social networks.It gets you to no where.
You got to study harder, the subjects you are studying are useful to your future life.
Not everyone have the chance to study in NBS.
Even if you are not studying for your studies,you should be studying for your life.
Read more books, think more and learn more while you have the chance.

Thirdly,find out what you really want.
You need to know what you really want in life.
What kind of friends, what kind of life,what kind of future.
Once you have set your goal, then don't change it.
Don't be affected by the surroundings.You are living for yourself.
Resist all the temptations.Temptations only bring you temporaral happiness, it gets you nowhere.

Done with my reflection for the day.Hopefully it can makes become a better person.
I am really hoping that XXX co can call me up.Please.
With that job,then I can be more balanced in my life.

Datuk Trip

Yeah..Just came back from Datuk trip.
Awesome trip.Met a lot of interesting people.
The presence of shell made me enjoy the trip even more.
First time in uni camps that I felt so comfortable.
I think that's how the real me is like.
I shall be more true to myself in future and hang out with people who are like minded more.

My life is really getting better.
Mum is so nice to me.
She asked to go for facial and be nicer to myself.
I feel bad at times for her treating me so nicely
It seems that I am the selfish devil,
she is the selfless angel.
I think i have made the right decision by moving out.
At leat now I learn how to appreciate life and people in my life.

Woohoo.I am going to New Jersey next year!
Hopefully X co will take me in, then I can go for another backpacking trip in Jan.
P.S:I think I am my focus is really different from typical uni student:)

I THINK MY LIFE IS A TOTAL SCREW UP.

IT WON'T MAKE MUCH DIFFERENCE EVEN IF I SCREW IT UP FURTHER,RIGHT?

SCREW MYSELF.

Somehow I have no idea what is wrong with me.
I cannot get myself out this emotional mood.Despite that I have talked with some of my friends for several times,
I still have doubts about myself, about my ability.

Seriously I have no idea what I am good at and what I really like.
I like a lot of things, it seems that I am not really good at them.
And I feel so lost.
I really cannot sense the happiess within me.
Now I feel so disconnect with people.
what can I do now? can someone teach me?
How to get the old Xing Dan back?

Nobody will know even if I have done something crazy again.
Perhaps it's the only way to get me out of my emotional attachment to that person.
No one get hurts, so why not?
Just let madeness rule the world.

我们总觉得别人的东西都比自己的好。

没有得到的时候，我们总想拥有。

得到的时候，我们却不懂得珍惜。

人就这是这样的一种动物。

犯贱是人的一种本性。

举个例子。好比说A和B给你选择。

A什么都好，你知道和A在一起，以后他会对你很好。

只要你努力一下，A就会把你当作很重要的人。

B什么都不好，B也不属于你一个人，他对你也不够好。

就算你怎么努力，B也不会帮你当作重要的人，因为B已经有很多重要的人了。

给大多数的选择，大家都还是会选择B，多过A。

因为人就是喜欢受苦，觉得得来不易的才是好东西。

还在留恋中。其实B也不是不好，只是他已经有了那个或者很多重要的人了。

也许那真的不是爱，只是难得的遇到了一个很像自己的人。

人生不能总是追求刺激，有时候还是要接受现实。

My

我也要在３０岁之前买一个像the central的Soho那样的房子。
其实就算自己一个人也没有什么。自己一个人也可以过得很开心。
我觉得我现在的生活还不错，
不算太忙，也不算太空闲。
很多属于自己的时间，很多属于自己的空间。
我能做我想做的东西，周围的人也对我很好。
人真的要保持一个平衡的心态，不要一直要求太多。
每个人都有不一样的生活，其他人的生活也不一定适合你。
我相信，我还是很相信。
只要努力，你会得到你想要的东西的。
一定要相信，如果连自己都对自己失去信心了，
那么你凭什么得到你想要的东西呢？

我要好好享受我的人生。

Positive energy

Had a great weekends with bestie.
Your friends can really change your life.
Coz I have a friend who always think positively,
that's why I am having more positive energy now.
And only with more positive energy, then you will be able to succeed in life.

Caught the movie eat,pray,love today.
It's my kind of movie.
Travel,love and self-discovery.
I became clearer about what I want in life.
And I am sure that I will get them, just a matter of time.

1 more week to recess week.
I cannot wait for it to come!
Bless me with all the positive energy!
Let my life be filled with joys:)

I am once again trapped in my own world.
How to get out of this trap?
I need to adjust my mood back, so that I can concentrate on studying.
When is holiday coming?I need to go out and breath some fresh air.
I know that I am running away.
But what else can I do beside running away?
I am really not confident about myself now.
I need to recharge and get back to my old self.
If you have asked me,I will go with you.

I am not confident about myself at all.
Where is my confidence?
How to find my confidence back?
I want to be confident about my life again.

Learning to accept myself

I am learning accept myself completely.
In the past, I always want to become someone else.
Even for the past few days,I tried to act young and think in an immature manner.
Then I realized how pointless it is.
If I really cannot behave like the others, so why bother about it?

I am happily living in my own world.
Well, that doesn't mean I don't go out and socialize.
It only means that accept who you are, then people will accept who you are.
Thank God for having such a supportive mum, who always shows me support in whatever I do.
I doubt most of the parents won't be so supportive as her.
They will prefer their kids to do well in school,have a successful career and go for expensive holidays.
At least for most of the parents in Asia.

Well. Those female hormone inside me is making me going crazy.
I was still hoping to be friends with X.
I also was hoping that Y will come back and show some care and concern about this old friend.
There are people that I want to care about too.
But those are just fat hopes.

Going for social dance tomorrow.
Bless me with good luck.