Caught the movie the holiday on sunday.
I still enjoy watching movies.
The holiday is plain yet nice.
It made me feel like going for a holiday too.
Hopefully somewhere in the near future I can head down for trip to the Europe soon.

I start to like my internship.
Not the place, the work or the colleagues,but those intern girls.
Every dull day is being brighten up by their companionship.

Somehow I find men in their 30s are quite attractive.
Sorry I am having weird thoughts again.
Not sexually!Ok?
Hopefully I can meet someone soon.

Looking forward to reunion with old society members and sunday's party!

There is a saying goes like when God closes one door, he will open another one for you.
Sometimes only you are in troubled situations, then you will realize all the good things around you.
I guess it is really true.

For the past few days, I feel so dreadful about work.
Then I realized that actually there are a lot of good things around me.
For example, the intern girls.
I simply enjoy every lunch or the MRT ride home with them.

After listen carefully to the intern stories of my friends,
I realized that mine is not that bad actually.
Maybe I will feel better if I divert my attention to other areas.
I think I am just not used to the coldness of life or work.
But it's a good training for me to undergo.

Had a nice chat with Yulin on thurs.
Coz I feel so stressed at work.
Sometimes I actually envy her attitude.
I simply walk too walk in the journey of life,
there are lots of beautiful things I have missed out.
I should have lowered my expectations by miles.
Happiness maybe more important than achievements.

Friday had a good time with those friends from Ivy's church.
Get to know a lot of new friends,
friends from different countries and background.
They are so warm and friendly.
Guess maybe sometimes next time I will go back to the Philippines again if I can find someone to go with.
One more thing is that I am really thankful that I got to know Ivy.

Have to rush for my report.Then I can go out with my lovely friends at 3.

Today I managed to meet up with Yu Lin.
Have not seen her for a year plus.
Coz last time we had some cold war.
Then our friendship paused for a while.
Luckily it continues now.

We had a great afternoon.
Catching up with all the old memories,
like two elderlies trying to remember their younger days.
We talked about almost everything,
childhood, guys and even gays.
It just like last times how we used to share our thoughts with one another.
I hope this feeling will last longer.

Met up with Logen after that.
It suddenly pours heavily.
Moral of the story is that Singapore is not sheltered everywhere.
You should bring at least an umbrella when you go out.
haha..Secrets are meant to be hidden.
So someone better be careful with his words.

I am trying to be pleased by every little things in life.
Or perhaps I should learn to free of my hearts.
Let my heart to decide what I want instead of my brain.
Maybe some miracles will happen.
Another working day tomorrow.
I am not so stressed about working anymore.
Just don't feel like waking up so early.

Moving again.

I am moving house once again.
It just made me feel like a strayed cat.

For years and years,we have been moving.
Everytime when I feel I am so used to it,
then we have to move again.
For the past 20 years, I never have a home.
For the earlier 13 years, we do have a small house.
It is more like a little box, but it's better than nothing.
Many will not understand how it is like not having a home.
You feel that you belong to nowhere.

It's ok not to have a house of your own.
It's not so ok to not have a home of your own.
Though I am not a family oriented person,
I still have crave for a home.
A home that belongs to me.
Somewhere that I can find warmth and harmony.
It is more of a riducule than a reality.

Maybe it explains why I don't wish to get married or I feel so insecure all the times.
I guess family background really have an impact on a person's life.
The reason for me to appear as a strong and sometimes dominant woman is
because I have no choice.
I have nobody to depend on,
I have to be strong.

Sometimes I just feel it's tiring.
All you can do is nothing but striving to be the best.
I tried so hard to raise my wealth profile and social status over the years,
yet there is no improvement at all.
And I lose more than what I gain.
Today when i was walking on the street,
I simply feel like crying.
What do I have such a pathetic life?

But I am 20,I cannot cry anymore.
I am no longer a kid.
Tear are for kids,not adults.
Even if I cry,it will not make a difference.
Hopefully it's going to push me further,
so that I can study harder for my SAT.

If there is God,then drop me a nice man from the sky.
I will be more than glad.

It's not that bad,actually.

Now I feel much better about work.
Though I have a lot of workload, I realized that there's the way life is.
People pay you to do work, not pay you to slack around in the office.
I am simply stressing myself out by picturing myself being burnt out by work.

Today we went lunch with our team.
First time after two weeks of attachment.
Usually I will have lunch with my fellow interns.
Though I don't really know what to talk at my table,
it's still a nice lunch.
There are some reason for the awakard silence, hard to be explaint.

Amazingly, ice man talked to me.
He is quite friendly though he doesn't talk much.
And I managed to chat with Jolly on the way home from work.
I don't really feel that bad after all.
Oh ya..Eye candy looks cute today.
He looks nice in both formal and casual wear.
When you are handsome, you look nice in everything.
I think I can never have a chance to talk to him
though I am not sitting not very far away.
Coz I always look so dumb in the office.
风景用看的就好了。

American boy is one of my favourite song.
If you read the lyrics, you will understand why I love that song so much.

Suddenly miss the show of sex and the city.
I watched the whole 6 seasons during the exam period.
no regret coz it is really a nice show.
At least it's my type of show.

It's a city that I often dream of.
I want some glamorous moment too.
Eye candy is so cute to look at.
He simply brighten up my days.
(I think I sound like a pervert,
but it' ok.)

Feel like learning something new

Though my work ends quite late sometimes,i still feel tat i need to learn something new.People often commit the mistake of being changed by their surrounding.No.I want to change the surroundings.
Three things i am interested in
1.Kickboxing
2.Tennis
3.Ceremic art
I can decide which course to take up.My time and resource can only allow me to learn one.
So it will be great if my friends who are browsing through my blog give me some advice.
My dream is so near yet so far.

Take it easy

It has been a week since I started my attachment.
Life is pretty mundane,nothing surprising.
I am so happy to meet my friends on wed and thurs.
Finally some relief from work.
Friday had a small party at the company.
We managed to take photo with some big shot.
Haha..

Learnt from my friends, take it easy.
I shall adopt this attitude and pull through the entire attachment.
My attachment is not so bad.
Let me list down the pros to make myself happy.
Firstly,I am posted to a rather reputable companies, it ranked 12th in the fortune 500 companies.I should be glad to become part of it.And I am paid quite decently.
Secondly, my colleagues are rather nice. They have been teaching me patiently and help me whenever I have encounter some problems. Though they never invite us to any of the team lunch, I still have lunch with the interns.

Thirdly, my job actually exposed me to the use of complicated software, I will explore the software and maybe from there I can learn something about trading. Plus I got the chance to meet a lot of fund accountants from other department, some of them are pretty nice.
Forthly, though I may not used to hang out with some people, I guess it's a good training to
brush up on your interpersonal skills. One doesn't have to be true all the times. Sometimes a little bit of hyprocrisy will make your life easier.
And most importantly, I can see my eye candy everyday.
He is simply cute.
I am not fantasizing about him in the ways that Horace had said.
But I don't mind those things happen to me either.

I need to cut down my calories intake.
Sitting in the office wholeday is making me fat.
And once again,I am moving house.
When you don't own an apartment,
that's a routine you have to go through.

I am still dreaming about my dream.
Maybe the reality is just too cruel,
that's why I simply refuse to accept those things.
I don't want life to choose me,
instead I want to choose life.
I want to choose my own life.
Bless me.

3rd day of attachment.
I just feel that suddenly I miss my past so much.
Why can't I be a happy go lucky girl anymore?
What's the problem with me?
I need help,like seriously.

Random

很多人都在等，
等一个对的人出现，
可是如果花了一辈子的等待，
那个人还没有出现，
是不是就等孤独的度过一生了呢?

如果世界上的人都变了，
是不是你也要变呢？
或者你能有改变世界的力量？

Though things change,I still believe one thing.
Good guys go to heaven, the bad ones go to hell.

明天就要去实习了，既兴奋又很担心。不知道同事们好不好，不知道工作做不做得来。
这个星期都在玩，花了好多钱哦，看了好多韩剧。上了班就要开始省钱了哦，这样的化明年才有钱去韩国走走，或者是去日本。(不过韩国比较现实，日本太贵了。)
这几天都没有读书，这样下去可是不行的哦，下个月就要考试了，考不好的化就浪费的我的100块了，所以说以后每天在上班的路上都要读书。

My goal for the next 30 years.

Today when i was running,I suddenly thought of my goals.
Who do I really want?
What have I achieved so far?
I am a goal oriented person, so I think it will be better to list them down.
So that I will know, my friends will know.
I hope it will help me to stay focus, and not too drift away too far.

By 21 years old
-Travel to 5 countries or more
-Start my first major investment
-Get into my desired uni
-Learn a new skill
-Keep fit

By 30 years old
-Purchase my own apartment
-Take a gap year to travel
-Have a memorable romance
-Be my own boss
- Master 3 or more languages
-Travel to at least 10 countries

By 40 years old
-Become a socielite
-Have my own real estate company
-Own a holiday villa overseas
-Donate money to charity
-Be featured by times/forbes/newsweeks magazine
-Publish my own book

By 50 years old
-Own a farm
-Set up my own foundations
-Build a school
-Own an island
-Have someone precious to travel around the world

Optional Goals
-Get married
-Have kids
-Be divorced and remarried

Must try things
-Parachute, bungy jump, diving, backpack holiday, sit in a private jet, date someone romantic

Haha.Here's some of my goals.I know some of them are rather far away from my current life,
but I know I will achieve it somedays.Wish me good luck.

Attachment is starting soon.My free and easy week is going to be over soon.