Another Emo Post

If you are born to be a turtle,you are meant to carry the heavy shell for the rest of your life.
So it's human being.
You are forever who you are.
No matter how hard you tried, there is nothing you can change.
I thought that working hard can change one's destiny,
but i am wrong.
A totally wrong assumption.
Whenever that i am getting slightly closer to what i want,
i got beaten.
I am back to the square ones again.
The fact is life is too cruel.
How i wish i can be someone who have no worries about their rountine life?
How i wish i can be someone born with silver spoon?
I worked, I work and I have to continue working.
I am tired too,but i can't rest.
There is so much stress that is exerting on me.
It's driven me crazy.
Maybe i am too greedy.There are lots of people who don't even have the basics to live.
Their life are even at risk. At least I got the chance to live, I should be happy with that,right?
I hate struggling with life.
But that's what i am doing everyday.
I hate acting in my own life.
But I am always posing as another me in front of the others.
Not many people understand my situation.
Not many people care to understand my situation.
Anyway I am not a good soul.Maybe I did too many bad deeds, that's why I deserve to live this way.
If there is God, Can i ask God a question?
Why am I having such a hellish life?
Stop telling me it's a test that everyone of us have to gone through.
I have no more energy to withstand any blow.
If I die, will anyone miss me?