Life is a game,
some people play it the dangerous way,
some people play it the safer way.
But the outcome really don't depend on you.
Sometimes your moral values just got confused.
The line between right or wrong is just so blurred.

There are things you want to do,
yet you cannot do anything.
When you tried to do something,
then you realized you have tried too hard and there is not outcome.

Forget it.
I shall stop looking up and start to look down.
Tomorrow is a better day.

Sometimes I am really confused about myself.
Nowadays I seem focus too much on career, future and money.
All I want is fame, glamour and so called success.
I have ignored the most basic things such as happiess.
Where to find simplicity?
Where to find happiess?

有些人想要躲着你，
你怎么找也找不到。
有些时候我贱，
人家都不想见你，
你还在想什么。
醒醒，好不好。
不然你再继续下去就老了。

Update about my life.

Perhaps your thinking really decides how your life is.
I have been quite depressed over the past few weeks.
Actually there is no valid reason for me to be so depressed.
All the people around me, including my friends are all quite nice to me.
Though my work is boring,
but apprarently a lot other people are doing same kind of boring job.
My managers and colleague are all quite nice though we don't really talk.
And there is cute guys in the office that I can look at everyday.
So what is there to complain about?

Had fun yesterday with Jacinth and Shu Hua.
I miss the old internship days.
All the laughters and gossips.
I shall go back and visit my company sometimes soon.

Bestie is coming back on friday.
Looking forward to parties with Bestie.
I cannot wait for uni to start.
We will be in the same school again,
and we will also be graduating from Uni together if there is no misnap.

Who cares about people that never appreciates your kindness?
Life is still beautiful without them.

Bottle neck of my life

It's going to be another depressed post.
Anyway I am always a very dark person.
Colourful posts are not my forte.
I am always trapped in the shadow of my past and worries of my tomorrow.

Can I stop worrying?
Can I stop workhard?
I cannot.
If I don't work hard, I have nothing to fall back on.

I always thought that one decides his/her own fate.
Now I realized that it's not so true.
God decides who you are and what kind of life you are leading.
I hate this.
I hate working so hard.
I hate pretend to be strong.
But it's not you have a choice for everything.
You still have accept your destiny.

Sometimes i cannot even differetiate between fake happiess or real happiness.
Coz most the times I am not happy.
I am smiling for the sake of smiling.
I don't know how does being happy feel like.
Anyway my life is cheap.
Every year I have no idea whether I will live until the next birthday or not.
So it doesn't really matter if I am happy or not.
Cheap life don't really have much demand about life.

When you are younger, you got amazed by idol drama.
When you grow up, you realized all this are just fantasies.
Fantasies about life.
There won't be an angel even when you feel so helpless.
All you have is only youself.

Forget it.
I have this kind of fate.
What else can I ask for my life?
Everyday is just one more day.

My bad mood is still here after so many weeks.
It seems no matter what I do,
I still feel bored and unhappy.
Work is making me depressed.
My job is really too simply and boring.
Now my only entertainment in the office is to peek at Mr Cute and trying to hide away from Mr Serious,who always pop out behind my back and give me task to do.
I am losing my all senses.
Perhaps I am suffering from hormone inbalance?

I feel like going to club.
Maybe getting drink is the only way to forget all the troubles in life.

钻石

有些人身上有一种东西，
我却没有。
这种东西叫做美好。
美好得让人觉得幸福。

这种东西我想得也得我到。
谁不想要让自己过得幸福呢？
可是很多时候多需要一些运气吧。
可能我真的没那个命。
有时候觉得我妈真的是个好女人，
可是呢，过得还是那么辛苦。
可能我跟她的命一样吧，
或者我连她的命都不如吧。


我世故我複雜
她是無價的鑽石阿
我是不值錢的砂
她是鑽石我是砂

我真的很喜欢这首歌。
因为自己怎么努力，
也不过是沙。
怎么能比得上钻石呢。
人，有时候真的要任命。

命运不会对我那么友善的，
他总是会先给我一点甜头，
然后再把我所拥有的全部都带走。

I think for the past few years,
I have lost myself.
I forgot who I am and what I really want.
I ignored what my heart tells me to do.
I was doing things merely following the world.

Slowly I am going to find myself back.
So what if the whole world is doing something else?
So what if I am being different from the rest?
As long as I am happy,
nothing really matter that much.

Tired

I feel tired.
I need a get away soon.
Please get all this negative spirit off me!
But I just cannot adjust myself back to the happy mood.

Let me sleep with a tomorrow that will never come.

Loneliness can make a person sick.
I think I am mentally sick now.

看了泡沫之夏，心里有一种痛的感觉。
好久都没有看偶像剧而被感动了。
真的觉得大Ｓ很不错，
漂亮，有个性。
这样的女生真的很吸引人吧。

觉得我这个人真的太爱幻想，
真的不现实。
有哪一天我能放下幻想，现实一点呢？

Some people are just rude

Some people are just rude.
There is a limit to everything.
It's not every joke is funny.
some are quite hurtful.

Can someone tell me who is a friend and who is not?