I have to admit that I am someone who thinks a lot.
Practically I think about everything, life, family,friendship,relationship and even the world around me.
Life would have been so much easier if I don't think so much.
If I don't demand much, I will have found myself a boyfriend easily.
If I don't value friendship so much, I won't feel sad when your friends stop contacting you.
If I just comply with convention,then I won't have so much troubles.

But I just cannot stop myself from thinking and questioning.
I am really curious to know about a lot things, even though the truth maybe hard and cold.
I want to know why some friends stop contacting you all of a sudden,
I want to know what are some guys thinking about,
I want to know why can some woman be loyal to friends.
I want to know a lot more.

Perhaps I should just go and sleep,
let my mind rest in ease, then i will be much happier.

Mid autumn festival

Mid autumn festival is just over.
I had a celebration with Ivy and friends over at the kismis apartment.
It makes me feel good to hang out with those friends though i don't really meet them often.
Surprisingly Ryoko still rememebers me.I only saw her once back in last year's christmas.
Nate is fun to talk to. When he was mentioning about Thailand,I started to miss Thailand again.

Lecturer L is really funny.Though she has to eat lunch with another professor,
she didn't forget about our lunch appointment.
She actually came to tell me about it and about his status..haha..
Hopefully I can become a good friend with the lecturer.She is really nice:)

My neighbour girls are just so funny. They actually gave me a lot of confidence through those jokes they made. It makes me feel like much better about hall life.

I guess my life isn't so bad afterall. I should continue to stay optimistic about it.
Let bygone be bygone.Somethings are meant to be forgotten.

Lost

I feel lost again.
I don't know what I can do and What I am good at.
Before that I was so certain about my goals and my future,
now I start to doubt about my ability to make my dreams come true.

I am not happy.
I have followed my friend's advice about thinking positively
and I tried very hard to get rid of my negative self.
Yet I still cannot feel happy.

I tried my best to remain confidence about myself.
It's just that things are turn out according to myself.
I can take failures, but not multiple failures.
Sometimes I will also question myself about my interest and talents.
The answer that I got in the end is that I am a good at nothing.

Talking about relationship and friendship,
I feel lost again.
Why is it so hard to meet someone nice,
Who can make me feel loved.
Why I am still thinking about some unimportant passerby in life?

Where are the angels?Can someone bring me out of this place and help me to sort out my thoughts?I feel like a lost sheep without any directions.
All I need is some support and guidance.
God bless me.

About school

My life has been so much better this week.
Made a few new friends at the deli appreciation interview though i never got in.
Salsa class is fun though it's very hard.First time in my life going for dance audition.Nervous to the max.
.Had this random yet funny conversation with my marketing lecturer at the mac. I shall not disclosed the content.
My neighbours are nice,my friends are nice,everything seems to become better and better.i shall not ask for more.
Hopefully i can find a job soon,keep my mind occupied.

I still think of him sometimes, how?
Though I know that I am nothing in his life.
But it's just so hard to let go.
Will things become better when I wake up tomorrow morning?

Trying to get myself motivated

I am trying very hard to get myself motivated.
After reading through the first chapter of think and grow rich
my confidence is back again.I guess that i should really think
more positively in order to live a happier life.
Your attitude decides your altitude.
Though i am trying very hard,sometimes i still think of him.
It's just not so easy to forget someone,even if it's someone
not so important.
Please let me meet someone new.so that i can move on.

原来我也害怕寂寞。

I am just feeling insecured all the times.
What can I do?
I have no idea if the situation is going to improve over the next few weeks,months or even years.
I shouldn't be greedy. I already have good friends with me.
What else can I ask for?
I don't know, but I am just feeling uncertained.
God bless me.

有学长说，上大学就是要认真地谈场恋爱，
但是我能吗?
我很努力的忘记，
只是我不经意还是会想起。
可能真的很难喜欢上一个人吧。
喜欢上了就被办法那么快就忘记。
我是女生，可是我真的没办法理解有些女生。
可能我一辈子都是那种神经大条的女生，
没办法很女生的女生。
或者我根本就是个男人，
只是自己不知道。
希望明天会更好。
我真希望能找到真心的朋友

Update about my uni life

I have attended my first lecture in uni.
So far so good, though the pace is a bit fast,
luckily i managed to do some reading before hand.
I still feel lost, uncertain and insecured.
Somehow I just don't know who to hang out with and who are my friends.
Espcially when i am alone, I feel lonely.
Though I am doing the same thing as I used to be when I am at home,
but the feeling is different.
Hopefully I can overcome it soon.
May I find good friends in uni.
May I get rid of this insecured feeling.
May I be happy always.

First week of uni

I had my first week in uni.
Moved into my hall on wed,attend the opening ceremony on friday.Everything seems so new and different.
Talked to a few seniors and friends about uni,yet i still feel so uncertain.
Actually i am quite lucky,i have my best friend same school as me.Then i also know quite a lot of old friends here.What's there to be scare of?i have no idea,perhaps i am not that brave.

I thought that I am fearless, actually I am not.
Staying in the hall alone makes me feel lonely,
going to school makes me feel so uncertain.
I just don't know what to do.
Can I stop feeling this way?
I need encouragement, a lot of them.