Had a good time yesterday with shell. Started going to the archade at this age is seriously funny, but it's really fun. Today I had BBQ at Yu Rong's house. Thank God for me to have such good friends, bringing so much warmth into my life. Applying hall in the process, hopefully everything will go smoothly, so that I will still have a place to stay after I come back from the states. Finally I have figured out why I am not working so hard now, coz I am afraid that I become too good,why created distance from people. I am afraid that I got seduced by all the tempation, then miss out important parts of my life. Perhaps I just need time to reconsider my direction in life. Time to pick up my pen and start writing again:)

Sometimes I just feel so lost.
I have no idea where I am heading to.
人定胜天，但是要是人都不努力，还怎么能胜天。
I just feel like writing,
but nothing sensible comes out.

Stop feeling down.Everything is gonna be alright.
Stop judging yourself.
It's ok to make bad decisions.
Move on.
There is always a tomorrow.
Believe in yourself.
You are good in a lot of things.
Just that you don't know.
It takes time for you to find out.
Life is not easy for a reason.
Live with no regrets.

Finally I am done with my business law assignment.
Despite the fact that every now and then my mood still flucturate,
I tried to make myself happier by thinking about happy things.
Why should I make my own life miserable?

Had a happy trip to Penang and Trang with marine.
Met so many nice people along the way,
the people in Penang who warn us about our bags,
the uncles and aunties in Thailand who worry about our safety,
the family who brought us to dinner and hotel.
So blessed to have met them.

Well,How I wish that I can see him again.
Who ask me not to take initiatives when i am given so many chances?
Never mind, since it's over, there is nothing that I can do.
I should just take it as a lesson learnt.

I guess what I need the most is to adjust my attitude,
appreciate life from a different angle,
then I will be much happier.
Gonna study with Yu Rong tomorrow.
It has been so long since we last studied together.

Though many people are not beside me,
I know they are there for myself.
人真的该知足。
知足者长乐。
I should focus more on my dreams.
Bless me!

How long more are you going to behave like this?

I realized that I have been blaming others for whatever that is happening to me.
I blame my family, my brought up and almost everything else.
Everytime when i look at facebook, I was lost in other people's world.
I wish that I can be them.
I wish that my life can be as happy as them.
I wish for a lot of things.
but I forget who I am.

Everyone has different way of living.
Why do you have to copy other people's model of living?
How long more are you going to engross yourself in self pity?
Nobody owes you anything?
Seriously nobody.
If you don't pull yourself up, there is nobody that can help you.
Start living in doubts and start living.

Where is the one who is full of ambition and vigor?
Where is the one who afraids of nothing?
Where is the Xing Dan that I have known for years?
I guess it's really time for a change.
For a change of attitude.
幸福是要靠自己争取的，你不努力，没有人能帮的了你

Whenever I though that my life is smooth sailing,
unexpected things happens.
Perhaps this is life,
full of uncertainty and surprises.

How long more do I have to be alone?

A lot of times I told myself,
it's ok to be alone.
I am alone, but I am not lonely.
God has prepared the right one for one.
It's just a matter of time.

But a lot of the times I really hate to be alone,
I hate of eating alone, studying alone, walking alone.
How I wish that I can have someone to share everything?
The joy, the pain or even moment of embarassment.

I don't know how long more do I have to be alone.
I don't know how long more I can take this loneliness.
What have I done wrong to deserve all this?
Why cannot I live an easier life?

God, can you show me the light?
Can you lead me to the right one?

Though Yu Rong's comment actually made me feel sad for a while,
I think I am ok with it.
Afterall, my life is simple now,
I am pretty satisfied with it.
Complexity has burnt my life and myself out.
All I need to do is stay focus and move towards the direction that I wanted.

Lesson for today, never take your friends for granted.
And always watch out what you say.
You may not mean those things,
but your words are appeared to be.

Again, I have truly sorry.
I hope it won't ruin our friendship.
You know how important is that.

今天跟穗穗和小琛去跑步啦，跑的我什么烦恼都不见啦。
开心其实很简单，只要不要想那么多，
很多事情都可以让我很开心的。
把过去放下，人生还能重新开始的