Perhaps life is never fair.
For the past 21years, I struggle so hard to get myself a decent life.
Yet life has been pretty much the same.
Still a torture.
I tried so hard to smile,
I tried so hard to hide,
I tried almost everything else to make myself happy.
In the end I realize happiness can never belong to me.

Today I saw the tiny little newborn of my landlord family.
Today I saw how happy and warm that Yu Lin' family is.
It seems like family is the thing that I can never have.
Of course,I have imagine myself having a happy family a thousand times.
But in the reality I have nothing but a sick mother.

My strength has used up.
My courage has eased away.
I don't know how long can I continue with all the struggle in my life.