Sometimes I really think I am an alien,
I don't understand about the complexity of the world.
Or rather I like to magnify the matters too much.
I like to turn a small matter into problem,
a problem into disaster;

Many people think that I am too pessimistic.
It's just the way I am.
I know people like to hang out with friends who are lovely,
bubbly,outgoing,fun and many more.
Who like to befriend with a burden.
Life isn't a fairytale.
There is no kind hearted angel or prince charming walking around to save the world.
This world is full of selfish people,
who cares about the life of the others as long as he is happy.

I don't believe in love and marriage.
I don't want myself to lose faith in friendship too..
But it seems it's happening.
Love,marriage(or maybe friendship) are just holy craps.
Who said family environment have no impact on the child?

I just hate my life now.
It simply sucks.
How I wish that I can graduate really really fast?
And get out of this place soon.

天气好，天气坏。
很多事情看起来很简单，
其实很复杂。
漫无目的的过日子，
假装的快乐和充实。
火星人的世界，
星球之间的距离。
其实快乐真的不容易。
等一个奇迹，
不可能的可能。
可能也许或者假如，
今天就会变成昨天，
昨天就会变成最后一天。
窒息的感觉，
是不是象征了末日的临近？

我好想好想飞，
逃离这个疯狂的世界。

Back

While,over the weekends,I went for TDP huddle and MSA camp.
It's really a pity that both of them acutally clashes,
that's why I have to excuse myself from MSA camp.
Through the huddle,I learnt a lot of current affairs.
And more importantly,get to know more like minded friends.
Though the response paper is due next week,which means I have to do research over the week.
I really enjoy the whole experience.

It's just so easy and fun to mingle with people with similar mindset.
And I have found many like minded people there who shared the same view as me.
Hope to see them again in the next huddule.

MSA camp is finally over.
It's a good experience.
I didn't take any photo during the camp coz we are simply too busy.
We did manage to bond the MCs and SCOs together,
which definately achieve our camp objective.
A round of appulause to all the project heads.
Hui Kuoon,Tricia,Rebekah,Yi Min,Jonathan and me.

Expectations are set base on our own desire.
When expectations are not meet,we get disappointed.
Let's just get over all the unhappiness.
It's going to get better and better.
Unhappiness,sorrow and disappoitment is just a part of our life.
We got to live with it.
At least we got to share with one another together.
Problems are a good thing.Is it?
Finally we can talk about things so openly.

Many things just don't go according to your wish.

Totally Shocking

I went for jogging for the past two days.

It's a good feeling to jog in the nature park.

Smell scent of nature,

Feel the warmth of the forest,

Experience the feeling of freedom.

I enjoyed the feeling of running alone,

until I found out something shocking this morning.

A dead body is found in Bukit Batok Nature Park,

where I went for jogging.

Just some spectulations:

1.I may just run past the the corpse without realizing it.

2.I may saw the murderer without knowing it.

3.I may be the victim if I went to the other side of the park.

4.Something else may happen.

This is my 3rd encounter of the year.

First one is fire;

Second one is car accident;

Now it's murder case.

I should considered myself lucky,

escaped from all this fatal incidents.

Maybe I should go temple and pray hard for my safety.

Some people are simply irritating.

I cannot understand about their hunger for power.

Should I fight?

Should I let them off?

It's has been a week since school have restarted.
Nothing changes except my mood.
Well,conflicts starts to arise when there are different opinions.
Let's skip this portion.
Ignore all the unhappiness.


Ai Ping invited me and Shell to her house.
Well,it's has been long since we last met up.
Coz she went for serve trip for 2 weeks.
I think serve trip is really worth going.
By seeing all the pictures she have taken,
I realize it's a waste of not going.
If I have a chance,
I should go.
It's really going to change or rather purify your heart and soul.

Took a lot of ARTISTIC photos before heading to Shell's house.
Good chat and nice dinner at her house balcony.
No more fabulous words nor mushy sentences.
I just cannot imagine what will happen if she really go overseas.
Hope she can get into NUS,so that I can still see her around.


I just hope everything is over soon.
I can get out of this place as soon as possible.
Maybe I will be reluctant,maybe I will miss it.
But I really need some changes.
Some injection of new blood into my life

All this photos are taken by my handphone camera
How I wish I can have a better camera.

Things are not going well.
Not as what I have expected.
I am losing faith.
Losing the enthusiasm in everything.
My current mood isn't going to lead me anywhere.
I want changes.
I am setting myself in mental trauma once again.
God save me,no matter where and who you are.
I am weak now.
I really need some moral support.

For her.

Sometimes our life are wonderful.

We spend hell lots of money on getting ourselves fancifully dressed,

merry making with our friends,

money flows out like endless river.

But what about our parents?

Those who bring us up without a complaint.

I just rebonded my hair,

I just went to sentosa with my friends,

I just went to k box to sing my heart out.

Well,that's not the point.

I am doing all this to make myself happy.

But in the meanwhile, what is my mum doing?

She is working.

She is struggling with her illness.

She is suffering.

I am simply too selfish.

I am simply too childish.

She is an angel.

All this years I just take her for granted.

I always thought she was indebted of me,

that's why she is doing all this.

She gave birth to me,she gave life to me.

No matter how great am I,without her I won't be here;

She was seperated from my dad when i was merely 1;

She brought me up single handly;

She suffered all this hardship all coz of me.

Yet I am comparably useless.

Rebellious;

Lazy;

And even evil at times.

I know all this,

yet I am not doing anything.

I should have done something,

yet I did not do a single thing.

Portraying life is easy,

but we tend to miss out the background.

I have to work hard,

for me and for her.

Becoming Jane

I have read the book pride and prejudice once when I was young.
Back then,I have no idea why is it such a great creation,what is so good about Jane Austen.
Then i read again when I was second 2 if I am not wrong.
I am still too young to understand about Jane's irony and biting social commentary.
Until I watched the movie,Becoming Jane,I realized why it' such a great book.


Certainly,Jane Austen is one of the writer I admired.
Yes,nowadays more people are familiarize with J.K Rowling,Stephen King and etc.
Rarely people will read up on such novels like Pride and Prujudice.
We spent more time facing computer,doing homogenous things that almost the entire world is doing.
Who is concerned about how the world is becoming?



Everyone is getting more and more identical.
Wearing the same clothes,having the same taste,doing the same things and living their live in the same way.
We are just like mass production that came from the factory.
We always in persuit for limited edition branded stuff,
but what we do is so contradicting to what we want.

I didnt' do much things this holiday,
but this holiday makes me think of many things that I never thought before.
I want to be Jane Austen.I want to be like her.
Live the way of her wish,persuing the life of her dream.
Time to get myself motivated and work hard.